This was another thread I made that gotten eaten, so I've reposted
So many survivors have expressed to me that their wounds have been minimized by friends and loved ones, who may have told them to get over it, since it happened so long ago, or that it was not a big deal. Other friends may have asked questions like "Why didn't you fight" or "Why were you walking there in the first place?" These doubtful statements and questions only serve to minimize our pain and make us feel as though we do not have a right to feel as we do. It is unfortunate, but sometimes when we reach out for help, we find that our friends and families are not there.
Some of us struggle with minimizing our own experiences. Validating ourselves can be difficult. It's hard to admit that what happened has affected us. Sometimes we look at other people's experiences, judge them to be worse than our own and think we should not feel as badly as we do because othes have had it much worse than we have. I've talked to other survivors who doubt their memories of abuse, which makes the healing process more difficult for them.
Each of our experiences are unique and our reactions to them are just as individual. A friend of mine gives the wise advice, "Honor your process." Honoring our processes is to accept our feelings as legitimate and justified. If you are here because you are healing, I hope that you will honor yourself and your feelings. We all deserve to heal.
Who Deserves to Heal
If you were gang raped, you deserve to heal.
If you were raped once, you deserve to heal.
If you have been raped more than, you deserve to heal.
If someone has sexually assaulted you, you deserve to heal.
If it was attempted rape, you deserve to heal.
If it wasn't rape, if it was unwanted and inappropriate touching, you deserve to heal.
If you did not fight or scream, you deserve to heal.
If you were drugged or too intoxicated to give consent, you deserve to heal.
If you did not say no, but indicated through your actions that you were unnwilling, you deserve to heal.
If you are a man who has been sexually assaulted, you deserve to heal.
If it happened ten or twenty or thirty years ago, you deserve to heal.
If it was incest, you deserve to heal.
If you barely remember it, you deserve to heal.
If you were sexually harrassed, you deserve to heal.
If you are someone who supports, you deserve to heal.
That's all there is to it.
I've met people who have the feelings that their rape was not a particularly "bad rape". My rape was not a physically violent rape. I was only conscious of being raped for a few seconds and when I realized it, my boyfriend violently beat my rapist. He was the only one who got hurt.
It didn't make any difference to me. I had still been raped. It still hurt on the inside. I needed to heal.
The degree of the rape, abuse or assault doesn't matter. We feel many of the same emotions. And we all deserve to heal from them.
Thank you so much for that post.
I've been forcing myself to stuff what little i remember away for so long, i only have images and feelings left. I havent been able to or am not willing to work through them, nor can i get rid of them. i dont live either. I exist for others but barely have the energy to do so anymore, so there are very few in my life. Thats ok... since i dont have me. Maybe one day ill have the strength to say what i do remember and acknowledge that it did happen. Thanks to all for sharing your stories. You share your strength, compassion, empathy and a myriad of other gifts by doing so.
im very greatful.