It's fucking evil either way
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Posted 24 April 2002 - 03:08 PM
Laney, believe it or not, when I originally posted this, I also thought of you. I am very interested to hear what you have to say when you are ready.
On another note, when I posted this, I was posting about the attempted rape. But since then I have been giving a lot of thought to the abusive relationship. I believe he KNEW what he was doing and that he had it PLANNED.
We first went on some dates. Fine. We had a nice time. He told me about being separated from his wife waiting for his divorce to become final. A lie. But a lie that he knew would get me to keep seeing him. Next was "I could spend the rest of my life with you" and "I love you". But he also added, "you don't need to say it back" which looking back tells me that he only said it because he knew that I would only sleep with someone I was in love with. So he said it, and we slept together. He knew that it would go this way. He started the verbal abuse first. He then played on my insecurities (he being the more experienced in bed) and guilted me into sex when I didn't want to and he made me THINK I loved him. The last night we had sex, he had the lubricant ready - before then, sometimes we used it sometimes we didn't and it was always put away in between. Why was it there ready to go if he didn't plan on having sex no matter what. He knew he could scare me into having sex.
IT WAS HIS FAULT!! HE WAS TO BLAME!! HE WOULD DENY EVERY WORD I AM SURE.
Thank you for allowing me to get this out.
Posted 18 April 2002 - 03:02 PM
Oh, what a capital #######. How calculating and cruel. He takes stock of you and then uses it against you in such a horrible way. Mongrel-breed bastard.
Women are capable of some fuckawful shit, honey....if you were set up by a "friend" that makes it all the more obscene. It would be easy not to want to see something so horrible. I don't know how anyone could be offended or feel anything other than compassion for you.
(((((Shells)))) thanks again for putting out this question, my darling.
Posted 24 April 2002 - 06:05 PM
Posted 09 June 2002 - 07:58 PM
Until I read this I really never questioned whether or not it was preplanned. I am going to have to admit that it was premeditated that he was going to try and have sex with me. Forcing me, I just don't know. Although he had previously said to me that I should leave him because he would end up r*ping me.
I really didn't believe him.
Posted 27 June 2002 - 02:27 PM
Please don't apologize, love, there's no need. How horrific that somebody planned to hurt you in that way. You have every right to be angry. Rapists certainly do know that what they do is fair game for a sense of power and control they feel inadequate without it.
The blame belongs aquarely with him, the bastard.
Posted 02 August 2002 - 08:44 AM
Posted 13 August 2002 - 05:16 AM
I know my rape was premeditated. I met the guy at the staff canteen I was working in between college and school, he was a member of staff. He invited me and a friend to go out with him and his friends. He called me the day before. I won't go into detail here, that is for the Share your story forum. But the next day, after he drugged and r*ped me and dropped me home. I tried to call him, and the number he had given me was a payphone. He had covered all his tracks. I didn't even know where he lived or his surname. If giving me the wrong number so I couldn't find him isn't planning it in advance, then I don't know what is!
Posted 06 June 2003 - 03:15 PM
The hardest thing is that I am certain at least one of them has done this before, based on both what he did and things he said about women always enjoying the pain.
And he'll do it again...
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