(((((((((((((((((survivor to thriver)))))))))))))))))))))
OMG, I am so sorry for what you went through. No attack is allowable, but that much pre meditation is un thinkable. I dont have words to express how this made me feel.
This was not your fault, and this is not what should happen to anybody.
Take care and were all here for you,
((((((((((((((((((((((((Honey)))))))))))))))))))))))))) I could really use that hug,yeah I found that out 3 years ago that she (Andrea) started planning it just a couple weeks after meeting me,she hadn't even turned 12 when she started planning it.
I don't have a lot of words to express how it makes me feel to know that this girl that I thought was my best friend could hurt me in such a horrific way.I just don't understand why she hated me,all I ever was to her was nice.I opened my house to her so that she could spend time out of her home and away from her sick and screwed up family.My parents made sure she was bathed and that she was dressed for appropriate weather conditions (her family was poor so she didn't have much clothing but her parents were also neglectful) my parents treated Andrea as if she were their daughter,she slept in my room in my guest bed,she used my computer,I told her things I would never have told anyone else.We had fun together,I really thought we were best friends and that she liked me,(I was bullied a lot in school simply for being the new kid) so to have one of these kids from this new town actually be my friend I was in Heaven.And then it turns out she was planning what would have been my r*pe had his wife not come home...... I really don't have adequate words to describe the crushing feeling I feel.
What kind of father "tickles" (that's what he called what he did to me,he "tickled" me where no one else had ever touched me) their children's friends? What kind of a father puts his hands on his children's friends in any way period?!
I don't know what made me go back to that house? I had been there once before 7 months earlier in March for Andrea's 13th birthday party and her Dad killed one of their kittens right in front of me (the kitten was asleep on the engine of his van because it was cold out,he turned on the van and he let the engine get hot knowing the kitten was on the engine..... when the poor kitty was gone from this earth he stood there laughing,later that night while Andrea was opening presents her Dad tried to pin me to the family room couch.I KNEW her Dad was creepy so WHY on earth did I go back 7 months later in September? How gullible and naive could I have been?!
I know and I can say now that it wasn't my fault I was 14 and he was 35-36 years old but I wish I had been smarter.
Thank you from the bottom of my heart Honey,the support is so very very appreciated it really is.