Well, i have a very good friend i guess she is one of my best friends. She knows a little that something happened when i was young, not about the men now. She is great, and she never rejects me, but i can't tell her everything, as i am afraid she will do.. I even know she won't...but it's hard. She's 7 years older than i am but we understand eachother always. When my ex drugged and laterr*ped me at April 6, i was in Amsterdam all night, waiting at a policestation as i was afraid outside, and i felt sad as they didn't let me report him, stupid police. So then i finally got a change to take a train at 7am, and i hadn't slept for a long time..
And i felt really bad, so i called her that early, and 7 am is early for her, as she always works late and sleeps till noon and we usually make jokes about it (when i call her at 3pm:'Did i wake u????lol)
Well now i called her, and she was the only person i could call, and i asked her wether i could come to her house before we would have dance-lessons (we are at the same musicalgroup together) And she was like'Sure u are always welcome', and she called a cab to pick me up from the trainstation, and that was very sweet.
So i arrived at her house, and she brought me to take a shower, as my bodytemperature was very low. I got out of the shower, she gave me some warm clothes of her, and got me alot of warm tea as i was still freezing. We sat on the couch together and she let me cry, and tell me about what happened that night. And she didn't hated me and even got angry at him!!
That day we had to be at our dancing class at 11am, and we drove there together and i could hardly dance as i was too tired, so she just told the others i wasn't feeling too well as i had the flue, and i was very grateful, as i didn't had to explain..
She's i guess my best friend, i know she won't leave me, and she's so strong.. She's the first one in real life who did something like this to me..
Sorry this is so long, i just wanted to tell what a wonderful friend i have..