[Broken_wings]

Age: 26 years old

Height: 5ft 6"

Hair: Layered, shoulder length, red/brown at the moment

Weight: Ha, i have bulimia and so don't like telling my weight

1.LIVING ARRANGEMENT
I live with my mum and my 3 younger brothers

2.WHAT BOOK ARE YOU READING NOW?
Just finished reading The little prisoner - Jane Elliott

3.WHAT'S ON YOUR MOUSE PAD?
Nothing

4.FAVORITE BOARD GAME?
N/A

5.FAVORITE MAGAZINE?
N/A

6.FAVORITE SMELLS?
Freshly cut grass

7.LEAST FAVORITE SMELLS?
Too many

8.FAVORITE SOUND?
The ocean

9.WORST FEELING IN THE WORLD?
A whole range of them

10.WHAT IS THE FIRST THING YOU THINK OF WHEN YOU WAKE UP IN THE MORNING?
I'll lie here a little longer

11.FAVORITE COLOR?
Pink or purple

12.HOW MANY RINGS BEFORE YOU ANSWER THE PHONE?
I don't answer the phone much, i have a phone phobia

13.FUTURE CHILD'S NAME?
Not sure i want children

14.WHAT IS MOST IMPORTANT IN LIFE?
My family, and finding peace within myself. Having compassion for others

15.FAVORITE FOODS?
Anything that's bad for me

16.CHOCOLATE OR VANILLA?
Chocolate

17.DO YOU LIKE TO DRIVE FAST?
I can't drive

18.DO YOU SLEEP WITH A STUFFED ANIMAL?
No

19.STORMS - COOL OR SCARY?
Scary

21.IF YOU COULD MEET ONE PERSON DEAD OR ALIVE?
Alice Sebold/Tori Amos, can't choose just the one

22.FAVORITE ALCOHOLIC DRINK?
JD & coke

23.WHAT IS YOUR ZODIAC SIGN?
Libra

24.DO YOU EAT THE STEMS OF BROCCOLI?
Yes

25.IF YOU COULD HAVE ANY JOB YOU WANTED, WHAT WOULD IT BE?
I would love to work helping others who've been raped, or are suffering from ED's

26.IF YOU COULD DYE YOUR HAIR ANY COLOUR?
It's dyed at the moment

27.EVER BEEN IN LOVE?
I think so

28.IS THE GLASS HALF EMPTY OR HALF FULL?
I'm a bit of a pessimist, so half empty, trying to change that though

29.FAVORITE MOVIES?
Pulp fiction, Trainspotting, Donnie Darko, Butterfly Effect, White oleander

30.DO YOU TYPE WITH YOUR FINGERS ON THE RIGHT KEYS?
No

31.WHAT'S UNDER YOU BED?
A suitcase

32.WHAT IS YOUR FAVORITE NUMBER?
2

33.FAVORITE SPORT TO WATCH?
Not keen on sports

34. FAVORITE MUSICAL ARTISTS?
Bright eyes, Tori Amos, Alanis Morissette, Rilo Kiley, Christina Aguilera, lots of others

35.FAVORITE TV SHOWS?
British soaps, documentaries about things i'm interested in

36.FAVORITE CITY?
Vienna

37.NAME OF FIRST PET?
Rabbit called snowy

38.FAVORITE SONG?
I couldn't possibly choose just one

39. FAVORITE ACTOR (male & female)
Not sure

This post has been edited by Broken_wings: 23 October 2005 - 05:02 PM

[Willow]

Age: 35 years old

Height: 5ft 8"

Hair: to middle of shoulder blades, brown but yukky colored brown

Weight: 163 (way over weight) !!!!! I also have dislusional weight/body image

1.LIVING ARRANGEMENT
I live with my Hubby & our youngest daughter, and pets

2.WHAT BOOK ARE YOU READING NOW?
None at the moment, burnt out on reading because I won't put a book down until I've read it all.

3.WHAT'S ON YOUR MOUSE PAD?
RealTree Camo picture/ad

4.FAVORITE BOARD GAME?
not a board game really but like Taboo & pictionary & scrabble & dominoes

5.FAVORITE MAGAZINE?
None really ... the Enquierer once in a while

6.FAVORITE SMELLS?
Freshly cut grass, Infant baby feet (in between their little toes) yes I'm odd. Lavendar, fresh baked goods, and my husband when he puts his spray on (Axe) I LOVE that smell !

7.LEAST FAVORITE SMELLS?
Right after it rains (earthworms) !

8.FAVORITE SOUND?
The kids, hubby, our pets, LAUGHTER !

9.WORST FEELING IN THE WORLD?
If my children are ill, sick, or hurt.... & Disappointing people, embarrasssment, letting someone down

10.WHAT IS THE FIRST THING YOU THINK OF WHEN YOU WAKE UP IN THE MORNING?
What time is it, gotta have a cigarette, gotta have a caffeinated soda !

11.FAVORITE COLOR?
it changes, but right now lavendar

12.HOW MANY RINGS BEFORE YOU ANSWER THE PHONE?
I don't answer the phone much, I am in the begining stages of agoraphobia... try to fight it though.

13.FUTURE CHILD'S NAME?
Can't have anymore children. BUT We have 2 & they have beauttiful names.

14.WHAT IS MOST IMPORTANT IN LIFE?
My hubby, kids, pets, and doing everything I can to help other people too.

15.FAVORITE FOODS?
Chinese (crab ragoon ROCKS) ! , chocolate, Broccoli Alfredo Pasta, All veggies fresh or cooked !

16.CHOCOLATE OR VANILLA?
Chocolate

17.DO YOU LIKE TO DRIVE FAST?
Only when its an emergency or I am mad (like a new flashback has hit me then I want to jump in car & drive) BUT I have stopped myself the last 7 times ! Yay !

18.DO YOU SLEEP WITH A STUFFED ANIMAL?
Nope... maybe have to try that !

19.STORMS - COOL OR SCARY?
Scary.. we have lived thru tornados so storms really get me hysterically Freaked for kids & hubbys safety !

21.IF YOU COULD MEET ONE PERSON DEAD OR ALIVE?
God/Jesus/Holy Spirit....then I would want to see my FIL again, miss him & he was the greatest.
Children I have miscarried.

22.FAVORITE ALCOHOLIC DRINK?
Absolutely do NOT drink, hate it.. perps were alcoholics !

23.WHAT IS YOUR ZODIAC SIGN?
Cancer

24.DO YOU EAT THE STEMS OF BROCCOLI?
Absolutely..waste NOTHING silly !

25.IF YOU COULD HAVE ANY JOB YOU WANTED, WHAT WOULD IT BE?
Victim Advocat for Incest & child Sexual abuse, the best Mom & Wife ever, Animal advocate.

26.IF YOU COULD DYE YOUR HAIR ANY COLOUR?
maybe a nice SHINY brown & auburn or maybe a blonde.. not sure

27.EVER BEEN IN LOVE?
Absolutely , I am now & have been for over 19 yrs ! (did I mention I have the greatest hubby in the world) ??

28.IS THE GLASS HALF EMPTY OR HALF FULL?
EMPTY...always has been , maybe alsways will be.
Darn glass ! I always get the stupid Half Empty glass !

29.FAVORITE MOVIES?
The BoonDock Saints, and most comedies & Action flims

30.DO YOU TYPE WITH YOUR FINGERS ON THE RIGHT KEYS?
absolutely NOT.. I have to look at the keyboard & STILL make typos !

31.WHAT'S UNDER YOU BED?
Dufflebag, suitcase, books, heat pad, Dust Bunnies & their friends.

32.WHAT IS YOUR FAVORITE NUMBER?
Fourty Four

33.FAVORITE SPORT TO WATCH?
Volleyball, Gymnastics,

34. FAVORITE MUSICAL ARTISTS?
BRYAN ADAMS !!!! 80's rock & heavy metal... some soft rock, Christina Aguilera, more but can't think

35.FAVORITE TV SHOWS?
Funny Videos, King of the Hill, Grounded for Life, Degrassi New generation, South of Nowwhere, Lifetime Channel, Thats so Raven

36.FAVORITE CITY?
none

37.NAME OF FIRST PET?
Twinkie

38.FAVORITE SONG?
I would Die for you

39. FAVORITE ACTOR (male & female)
Will Farrel, Ven Diesel, The 2 guys from The BoonDock Saints !!!!
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This post has been edited by Willow: 12 December 2005 - 01:55 AM

[Maddy]

Age: 17 today!

Height: 5ft 2"

Hair: Naturally curly, and blonde. About shoulder-length,

Weight: When I'm a size eight, I'll let you know.

1.LIVING ARRANGEMENT
With my Mother.

2.WHAT BOOK ARE YOU READING NOW?
'Les Miserables', and I finished 'The Nightingale Sings' yesterday.

3.WHAT'S ON YOUR MOUSE PAD?
Nothing

4.FAVORITE BOARD GAME?
Scrabble.

5.FAVORITE MAGAZINE?
Horse Deals.

6.FAVORITE SMELLS?
Cinnamon.

7.LEAST FAVORITE SMELLS?
Lots...

8.FAVORITE SOUND?
Kirsty.

9.WORST FEELING IN THE WORLD?
Heartbreak. The loss and pain and disappointment and devastation.

10.WHAT IS THE FIRST THING YOU THINK OF WHEN YOU WAKE UP IN THE MORNING?
"I wonder what Kirsty's doing...."

11.FAVORITE COLOR?
Grey

12.HOW MANY RINGS BEFORE YOU ANSWER THE PHONE?
One, if it's Kirsty.

13.FUTURE CHILD'S NAME?
Melina (Mina) or Albert.

14.WHAT IS MOST IMPORTANT IN LIFE?
Kirsty.

15.FAVORITE FOODS?
Cinnamon/aniseed stuff.

16.CHOCOLATE OR VANILLA?
Chocolate

17.DO YOU LIKE TO DRIVE FAST?
I can't drive.

18.DO YOU SLEEP WITH A STUFFED ANIMAL?
No.

19.STORMS - COOL OR SCARY?
Very scary.

21.IF YOU COULD MEET ONE PERSON DEAD OR ALIVE?
Kirsty, right now.

22.FAVORITE ALCOHOLIC DRINK?
Glayva whiskey.

23.WHAT IS YOUR ZODIAC SIGN?
Saggitarius.

24.DO YOU EAT THE STEMS OF BROCCOLI?
Yes.

25.IF YOU COULD HAVE ANY JOB YOU WANTED, WHAT WOULD IT BE?
As an author.

26.IF YOU COULD DYE YOUR HAIR ANY COLOUR?
Red, but it won't suit me.

27.EVER BEEN IN LOVE?
I'm in love right now.

28.IS THE GLASS HALF EMPTY OR HALF FULL?
Full!

29.FAVORITE MOVIES?
"My Family" is a great series....

30.DO YOU TYPE WITH YOUR FINGERS ON THE RIGHT KEYS?
I technically can, but no.

31.WHAT'S UNDER YOU BED?
Don't ask....

32.WHAT IS YOUR FAVORITE NUMBER?
13

33.FAVORITE SPORT TO WATCH?
Showjumping.

34. FAVORITE MUSICAL ARTISTS?
Tori Amos, Alanis Morissette, Enya, Clannad, Celine Dion, Josh Groban, Sarah McLachlan.

35.FAVORITE TV SHOWS?
"My Family".

36.FAVORITE CITY?
Harrow.... Kirst lives there.

37.NAME OF FIRST PET?
Blue, a cat.

38.FAVORITE SONG?
Right now.... "Pity the Child", Chess.

39. FAVORITE ACTOR (male & female)
Dakota Fanning anddd... the guy who plays Owen in Holby City.

[Shalom]

Age: 45

Height: 5' 3"

Hair: Long, used to be fairly blonde but darkened with each kid - not truly brown, though, just yetch.

Weight: Not tellin'. When I was abused as a kid, I grew my hair long (it'd been a very short pixie cut). When I was abused as an adult, I gained weight. :P/>

1.LIVING ARRANGEMENT
1 hubby, 5 kids, numerous cats in a very old house...

2.WHAT BOOK ARE YOU READING NOW?
I forget what volume of G.K. Chesterton's Collected Works (one of the Illustrated London News volumes), Satan's Ten Most Believable Lies, Sayers' The Whimsical Christian, and Graglia's Domestic Tranquilities (only I started in the middle of that one).

3.WHAT'S ON YOUR MOUSE PAD?
Don't have a mouse pad - I use a stack of pages from an old print-out of the story I've been working on.

4.FAVORITE BOARD GAME?
Don't like board games as a rule, but don't mind playing the cooperative games from these guys with hubby and the kids - I think the two I like best of those we have are Round-Up and Secret Door. We really should get some of the ones for older kids now our youngest is five. :rolleyes:/>
http://www.familypastimes.com/

5.FAVORITE MAGAZINE?
Smithsonian

6.FAVORITE SMELLS?
Cinnamon and other baking smells; lavender; roses if they're outdoors (too overpowering inside), lilac ditto.

7.LEAST FAVORITE SMELLS?
Mold, followed closely by dust. (They kick up my allergies.)

8.FAVORITE SOUND?
Purrin' kitten.

9.WORST FEELING IN THE WORLD?
Hopelessness

10.WHAT IS THE FIRST THING YOU THINK OF WHEN YOU WAKE UP IN THE MORNING?
"I wonder if I can sleep in."

11.FAVORITE COLOR?
Violet

12.HOW MANY RINGS BEFORE YOU ANSWER THE PHONE?
One or two if I'm at my desk, many many otherwise.

13.FUTURE CHILD'S NAME?
Probably have all the kids I'm getting, but the last time I miscarried we planned to call him Peter Leonard

14.WHAT IS MOST IMPORTANT IN LIFE?
Love.

15.FAVORITE FOODS?
Chinese. Dark chocolate.

16.CHOCOLATE OR VANILLA?
Chocolate

17.DO YOU LIKE TO DRIVE FAST?
I speed terribly on highways; behave myself in town.

18.DO YOU SLEEP WITH A STUFFED ANIMAL?
No.

19.STORMS - COOL OR SCARY?
Cool.

21.IF YOU COULD MEET ONE PERSON DEAD OR ALIVE?
My son who died 20 hours after birth. Don't even have a pic of myself holding him. :(/>

22.FAVORITE ALCOHOLIC DRINK?
Really don't drink, but some twenty years back I had a wine cooler I liked okay. ;)/>

23.WHAT IS YOUR ZODIAC SIGN?
Pices

24.DO YOU EAT THE STEMS OF BROCCOLI?
Not the big ones - always intend to make cream of broccoli soup with them. Rarely do. :blush:/>

25.IF YOU COULD HAVE ANY JOB YOU WANTED, WHAT WOULD IT BE?
An author or researcher.

26.IF YOU COULD DYE YOUR HAIR ANY COLOUR?
Auburn - I was born a redhead, but it all fell out and then grew back in blonde. :confused:/>

27.EVER BEEN IN LOVE?
Yep.

28.IS THE GLASS HALF EMPTY OR HALF FULL?
Empty

29.FAVORITE MOVIES?
LOTR, Star Wars (the Luke and Leia and Han ones), Shawshank Redemption, first Lethal Weapon flick (don't like the second, the third and fourth are just okay).

30.DO YOU TYPE WITH YOUR FINGERS ON THE RIGHT KEYS?
Mostly.

31.WHAT'S UNDER YOU BED?
Big box of Smithsonian magazines, miscellaneous socks and pens, cat toys (mostly rings off of milk bottles and pipe cleaners), stray books (not necessarily mine or hubby's), and a very great deal of dust.

32.WHAT IS YOUR FAVORITE NUMBER?
9

33.FAVORITE SPORT TO WATCH?
Dressage, cross country horsie jumping, ice skating, gymnastics (I go for the pretty...).

34. FAVORITE MUSICAL ARTISTS?
Stewart Copeland, David Van Tiegham, Michael W. Smith, Stephen Curtis Chapman

35.FAVORITE TV SHOWS?
LOST, Numb3rs, Probe, Adderly and the A-Team

36.FAVORITE CITY?
Denver, but it's getting too big :(/>

37.NAME OF FIRST PET?
Taffy, yellow tabby cat

38.FAVORITE SONG?
"Clocks" by Coldplay

39. FAVORITE ACTOR (male & female)
Barbara Stanwyk and Cary Grant

[Alice]

AGE: 16…17 tomorrow :)/>

Height: 5' 4

Weight: Not tellin

Hair: medium length brown hair

1.LIVING ARRANGEMENT
Right at the moment with my mom, brother and doggie

2. WHAT BOOK ARE YOU READING NOW?
She’s come undone by Wally Lamb

3.WHAT'S ON YOUR MOUSE PAD
It’s shaped like and apple with a worm coming out of it

4.FAVORITE BOARD GAME?
Life

5.FAVORITE MAGAZINE?
Oprah

6.FAVORITE SMELLS?
Baby powder

7.LEAST FAVORITE SMELLS?
Old spice cologne

8.FAVORITE SOUND?
My baby cousins voice

9.WORST FEELING IN THE WORLD?
Rejection

10.WHAT IS THE FIRST THING YOU THINK OF WHEN YOU WAKE UP IN THE MORNING?
Do I have to get up mom?

11.FAVORITE COLOR?
Purple

12.HOW MANY RINGS BEFORE YOU ANSWER THE PHONE?
2

13.FUTURE CHILD'S NAME?
Kenneth, Mackenzie, Madison, Savannah…

14.WHAT IS MOST IMPORTANT IN LIFE?
My family

15.FAVORITE FOODS?
Pizza

16.CHOCOLATE OR VANILLA?
Chocolate

17.DO YOU LIKE TO DRIVE FAST?
Can’t drive… yet

18.DO YOU SLEEP WITH A STUFFED ANIMAL?
Yep… 6 of them

19.STORMS - COOL OR SCARY?
SCARY!!!!!!

20.WHAT TYPE WAS YOUR FIRST CAR?
Don’t have one

21.IF YOU COULD MEET ONE PERSON DEAD OR ALIVE?
mmmmmm… lots of people

22.FAVORITE ALCOHOLIC DRINK?
I am only 17 so over course I have no idea ;)/>

23.WHAT IS YOUR ZODIAC SIGN?
Sagittarius

24.DO YOU EAT THE STEMS OF BROCCOLI?
Yep

25.IF YOU COULD HAVE ANY JOB YOU WANTED, WHAT WOULD IT BE?
Child psychologist specialized in working with children that have been sexually abused

26.IF YOU COULD DYE YOUR HAIR ANY COLOUR?
Blonde

27.EVER BEEN IN LOVE?
Ummmmm… yep

28.IS THE GLASS HALF EMPTY OR HALF FULL?
Half full…today

29.FAVORITE MOVIES?
28 days, hope floats

30.DO YOU TYPE WITH YOUR FINGERS ON THE RIGHT KEYS?
Nope

31.WHAT'S UNDER YOU BED?
Board games and prolly some dust

32.WHAT IS YOUR FAVORITE NUMBER?
24

33.FAVORITE SPORT TO WATCH?
Hockey baby… I am a true Canadian girl!!!!!!!

34. FAVORITE MUSICAL ARTISTS?
Barenaked ladies, nickel back and kid rock

35.FAVORITE TV SHOWS?
Law and order special victims unit, ER, 7th heaven, House, Everwood, three wishes… think that’s about it

36.FAVORITE CITY?
Kokomo, Indiana

37.NAME OF FIRST PET?
Madonna

38.FAVORITE SONG?
Right now… seasons of love… it usually changes daily

39. FAVORITE ACTOR (male & female)
Mel Gibson and Mariska Hargitay

This post has been edited by DramaQueen: 14 December 2005 - 04:11 PM

[veryconfused]

Name - Jess

Age - 24

Height - 5'1

Weight - 105 lbs

Hair color - brown

Eye color - brown

1.LIVING ARRANGEMENT -i live on my own. I like it.

2.WHAT BOOK ARE YOU READING NOW?
Blindness - Jose Saramago
and Thus Spoke Zarathustra - Nietzsche

3.WHAT'S ON YOUR MOUSE PAD? I have one of those funny finger-roll-mouse things on my laptop.. uh, yeah.. that was technical ;)/>.

4. FAVORITE BOARD GAME? - Clue

5.FAVORITE MAGAZINE? - New England Journal of Medicine

6. FAVORITE SMELLS? - old leather

7. LEAST FAVORITE SMELLS? - stale shrimp.. !

8. FAVORITE SOUND? - quiet

9.WORST FEELING IN THE WORLD? - helplessness

10. WHAT IS THE FIRST THING YOU THINK OF WHEN YOU WAKE UP IN THE MORNING? - "Now, start by wiggling your left toes..."

11. FAVORITE COLOR? - green

12.HOW MANY RINGS BEFORE YOU ANSWER THE PHONE? - I don't, I usually call back

13. FUTURE CHILD'S NAME? - not sure if I will have them.. if so.. Franklin or MacKay.. for either a boy or girl. I like boys names for girls; every girl I know with a boy's nickname has a sense of confidence you don't see enough in women.

14.WHAT IS MOST IMPORTANT IN LIFE? - compassion

15. FAVORITE FOODS? - cheeseburgers, and any vietnamese food that comes with fish sauce... yum.

16.CHOCOLATE OR VANILLA? - chocoholatism runs deep in my family ;)/>. Who pics vanilla?

17.DO YOU LIKE TO DRIVE FAST? - Yes, when I drive..

18.DO YOU SLEEP WITH A STUFFED ANIMAL? Yes.. a moose.. his name is bruce.

19. STORMS - COOL OR SCARY? - awesome, especially if there is heavy heavy rain to play in.

20.WHAT TYPE WAS YOUR FIRST CAR? - I haven't ever had a car.

21.IF YOU COULD MEET ONE PERSON DEAD OR ALIVE? -
Ghandi, or language barrier considering... Churchill.. anyone who can overcome so many personal troubles, be drunk most of the time, and still have such an impressive track record, woudl be well worth brain picking

22. FAVORITE ALCOHOLIC DRINK? - used to be tequila.. now I think it's chardonnay

23. WHAT IS YOUR ZODIAC SIGN? - scorpio

24.DO YOU EAT THE STEMS OF BROCCOLI? - yes.. i am a veggie addict

25.IF YOU COULD HAVE ANY JOB YOU WANTED, WHAT WOULD IT BE? a psychiatrist with doctor's without borders

26. YOU COULD DYE YOUR HAIR ANY COLOUR? - really really blonde.. lol.. it would look insane

27. IN LOVE? - in some ways

28.IS THE GLASS HALF EMPTY OR HALF FULL? - half full.. or I should say mostly full.. I should pay more attention to the missing parts

29.FAVORITE MOVIES? - Waking Life, Vannila Sky, and Mississippi Burning.

30.DO YOU TYPE WITH YOUR FINGERS ON THE RIGHT KEYS? - yes.. 2 years of typing classes

31.WHAT'S UNDER YOU BED? a collection of things that were shuffled from my floor.. probably

32. WHAT IS YOUR FAVORITE NUMBER? - 4

33.FAVORITE SPORT TO WATCH? - track and field or rugby

34. FAVORITE MUSICAL ARTISTS? - radiohead, greenday, portishead, lamb, moby..

35.FAVORITE TV SHOWS? - Law & Order

36.FAVORITE CITY? - Vienna

37.NAME OF FIRST PET? - Freda & Fennel.. goldfish

38. FAVORITE SONG? - green eyes by Coldplay

39. FAVORITE ACTOR (male & female) - I'm going to go with Audrey Hepburn too! oh, and Sean Penn.. definately.

[Haullie]

My name is Haullie Free. Some people pronounce my name like (Holly) but it's not, it's promounced like (Hallie). I've had about 100 people in my life ask me "Is that like Hallie Berry?" LMAO! I was named after an Indian Grandmother of mine that this is the way the Shoshoni's spell it. Oftentimes people ask me if I made up my last name. truth is, I was born with it. I guess you could humourosly say I was BORN FREE! haha! Though I am married now with a new name, I still use my Maiden name Free for safety reasons on-line when I do public work. I don't want to put my married name in any harms way if you know what I mean.

I'm married to a wonderful man named Robert. He's a Correctional Guard Officer so yep, he stuff them rapists and murderers into their cells every night and doesn't take sheot from nobody. He's tough, yet he's sensitive to my needs. I have never met a man truly like Robert before. He's wonderfully caring and he always knows what I need out of life. He's nurturing and a great listening. I consider myself so lucky. What did I do to deserve a love like this?

I have a cat named Cole, He goes by many nick names...Baby Love, Baby of sweet love, Rolly Poley Coley, Little life, Little love of life, Little love of sweet life, Father Cole (because he has one white patch on his front neck so he looks like he's wearing a priest's collar LOL). I love to sing to my cat, in fact I sing to him almost every time I see him. I pick him up, we cuddle, what can I say...he's my baby! I call him my child.

I'm a survivor of too many things...Sexual abuse, rape, sexual association trauma, domestic violence...and you know what? They didn't kill MY spirit! My abusers range from a former step-father back in 1991 who raped me in the bathroom of our small apartment while my Mother was in jail for drug posession. He was also consistantly physically abusive to my Mother and myself. I had an aunt who was horribly abusive physically and verbally. For years I used to wonder if my new name was "stupid little bitch". I suffered many bloody attacks from the hands of those I thought loved me. When I was finally free from them, instinct led me to the hands of another abuser, my ex husband, who was not the most terrible person on the face of the plent...but he still abused me and for along time I was blinded by it because he used God as his excuse. I also suffered from a second rape after meeting a man on-line and going back to his place back in 1999 after I left my ex. I rarely talk about it to this day.[/b]

I'm an active advocate for survivors of sexual abuse and domestic violence. I have many up-coming projects I am doing to help bring awareness about this issue to the public to better help dispell the conspiracy of silence that surrounds all of us. I am currently working on an audio documentary called 'Voices of Strength' in which a couple members from Pandy's and 'After Silence' forums will be joining me on. I am also working on a Survivor Zine in the future to help survivors touch base with what is going on in the world and how much society is trying it's hardest to make THE difference in the lives of others, because every story deserves to be heard.

As for my looks well, okay...I'm tall! I'm 5'8 which I consider to be pretty tall for me. I'm a healthy size 14 and damn proud of it. I have curly brown hair that I have to take a blow tryer and a round comb to if I want it to be strait. So I'm jealous of anyone who was born with strait hair. You have it good! I have brown eyes, sometimes people tell me I'm "full of shit." In which case I cannot help but just laugh at. I love silly stupid humor and always try to make people laugh when I can, hardy har har!

I'm a crafty fanatic. I am always offering my services to people who need bracelets, painted boxes, drawings, even graphic art. I love to express myself graphically and craftily! The best feeling in the world is being able to share that gift with others. An even better feeling is knowing some of the crafts I do make wonderful birthday and christmas presents. There's nothing like something homemade.

I'm a nail biter and a joint cracker. Nuff said! God please keep me from doing this! yikes! My nails are so bad people call me "stubs" LOL! Okay I guess that is funny!

I love the smell of candles after blowing them out! They need to bottle that smell in an aerisol spray.

I can't watch triggering movies unless I am prepared days in advance, and I cannot watch them in the same room with people without thinking, "Oh God, they know I'm the survivor in the room, they're gonna start staring at me...just leave me alone!"

I'm a neat freak, every day my house has to be straitened up, dishes must be done, husband's lunches and dinners must be prepared for work in advance because he leaves for work at 2:00pm and doesn't get home until 10:00pm so I pack his dinners before work so he can heat them up at work. Before then I make sure I make him lunch before he leaves and sometimes I ook his breakfast depending on how tired I am in the morning. I like to know I am taking care of my husband as much as he takes care of me.

I oftentimes wonder why people think they know me more than I know myself. I've had many so called friends and family relatives in my life judge me, even to the point of self diagnosing some kind of odd mental illness out of thin air that has nothing to do with me personally, which I find halariously penile and petty. I know what I'm going through, oftentimes when I am judged...I try not to take it personally, that only tells me that there's something about them they may need to work on and I have nothing to do with it personally, I'm just the kid other kids throw stones at. Truth is, no one is my therapist except for my therapist. Which by the way is another point to bring up, I am not going to therapy because I just moved into this little town in California where the therapists are far from reach. Yet I've found a friend (from Pandy's) who is helping me get into a support group for survivors. who would have thought! It's amazing.

I'm a reality show junkie, that includes American Idol, Survivor, Celebrity Fit Club, and anything else I can get my hands on! HAHA!

Sometimes I have to leave in order to come back.

I LOVE COUNTRY MUSIC THE MOSTEST!

This post has been edited by Haullie: 13 March 2006 - 03:18 PM

[Rylee]

Name - Fokje
Age - 27
Height - 5'6
Weight - 145 lbs
Hair color - Mahognay
Eye color - Brown
1.LIVING ARRANGEMENT -I live with my mother :blush:/>
2.WHAT BOOK ARE YOU READING NOW? The Edge of Justice - Clinton McKinzie and Crazy Kisses - Tara Janzen.
3.WHAT'S ON YOUR MOUSE PAD? Powerland computers.
4. FAVORITE BOARD GAME? - I forget what it's called, but you can draw, answer questions, humm or whistle a tune, and make sculptures out of play-doh.
5.FAVORITE MAGAZINE? - Not big on magazines, but if I had to pick one I'd choose BUST!
6. FAVORITE SMELLS? - The back of my kittycat's neck when I hug her :wub:/>
7. LEAST FAVORITE SMELLS? - Sniff (the chemicals used by "sniffers" to get high).
8. FAVORITE SOUND? - My cat's purrrr.
9.WORST FEELING IN THE WORLD? -Guilt or Shame.
10. WHAT IS THE FIRST THING YOU THINK OF WHEN YOU WAKE UP IN THE MORNING? - I think of what ever happened the night/day before.
11. FAVORITE COLOR? - blue.
12.HOW MANY RINGS BEFORE YOU ANSWER THE PHONE? - Three.
13. FUTURE CHILD'S NAME? - Tyler for a boy, and something unique and uncommon for a girl.
14.WHAT IS MOST IMPORTANT IN LIFE? - Compassion.
15. FAVORITE FOODS? - Chicken fingers with honey-dill sauce, and popcicles.
16.CHOCOLATE OR VANILLA? - Vanilla, but that's a recent thing. It always used to be chocolate. I don't know why it's different now.
17.DO YOU LIKE TO DRIVE FAST? - I don't know how to drive, and I was in a bad accident when I was young, so I'm thinking if I ever get the nerve to drive, I'd be super cautious :unsure:/>
18.DO YOU SLEEP WITH A STUFFED ANIMAL? Nope, unless my cat (not stuffed) feels like lying with me.
19. STORMS - COOL OR SCARY? - Both. It depends on how severe they are. MotherNature is Amazing :thumbsup:/>
20.WHAT TYPE WAS YOUR FIRST CAR? - I don't have a car.
21.IF YOU COULD MEET ONE PERSON DEAD OR ALIVE? - Cleopatra.
22. FAVORITE ALCOHOLIC DRINK? - Beer.
23. WHAT IS YOUR ZODIAC SIGN? - Virgo.
24.DO YOU EAT THE STEMS OF BROCCOLI? - Yes. Is this bad? Are you not supposed to??
25.IF YOU COULD HAVE ANY JOB YOU WANTED, WHAT WOULD IT BE? An FX Artist or (if I can steal an idea from Jess) A Nurse with DoctorsWithoutBorders.
26. YOU COULD DYE YOUR HAIR ANY COLOUR? - Deep dark purple...Like the color of a Plum.
27. IN LOVE? - Nope.
28.IS THE GLASS HALF EMPTY OR HALF FULL? - sometimes the glass is half empty... and sometimes the glass is broken <_<
29.FAVORITE MOVIES? - Michael Conner, Jesus Christ Superstar, The Never Ending Story.
30.DO YOU TYPE WITH YOUR FINGERS ON THE RIGHT KEYS? - yes.
31.WHAT'S UNDER YOU BED? My cat maybe... other then that, mostly dustbunnies, and the ocasional hair band.
32. WHAT IS YOUR FAVORITE NUMBER? - 13.
33.FAVORITE SPORT TO WATCH? - Soccer ('cause I know the rules), Vollyball
34. FAVORITE MUSICAL ARTISTS? - Propagandhi (the bubblegum punk stuff).
35.FAVORITE TV SHOWS? - Buffy the Vampire Slayer :yay:/>
36.FAVORITE CITY? -I've only been in one..Winnipeg
37.NAME OF FIRST PET? - Bow and Socrates
38. FAVORITE SONG? - I have no clue!! :confused:/>
39. FAVORITE ACTOR (male & female) - Jessica Lange and Matthew Lillard

[sheblynn]

my name is Lynn i am 28 years old i'm married with 2 daughters ages 8 years and 6 years live in Indiana i am 5'6 ft. tall about 135 weight blonde hair ( excpet when i color it ) :P/> and brown eyes

[Elle_MNOP]

Hi, I'm Elle, I'm 25 and I live in western Canada. I work in a law office, where I sit on the internet all day LOL. I have reddish dirty blondish hair with lots of streaks in it, I am never content with my hair colour. I'm 5'6", overweight and not really comfortable with that, and the proud auntie to a beautiful little boy and a darling little girl (and one more due in April).

[squirrely]

Hello!

I am a scientist. I am the proud parent of one maine coon cat named gingersnap. I am recently separated and will be divorced as of 2006. I love to scuba dive and snowmobile. Wish I could say more but I am too paranoid (perhaps for sound legal reasons)
:P/>
squirrely

ps- my hair color is red but my color has never been natural since it went grey at age 19. Nothing wrong with changing your mind :)/>

This post has been edited by squirrely: 04 April 2006 - 07:14 PM

[MayStar]

Name - Melissa

Age - 25

Height - 5'9"

Weight - nope wont say :P/>

Hair color - blonde, red, and brown

Eye color - hazel

1.LIVING ARRANGEMENT -I live my hubby and 2 sons in a house
2.WHAT BOOK ARE YOU READING NOW? Sisters, ( a devotion book)
3.WHAT'S ON YOUR MOUSE PAD? A tiger
4. FAVORITE BOARD GAME? -Life
5.FAVORITE MAGAZINE? - Soap Opera Digest or People
6. FAVORITE SMELLS? - Steak cooking on grill, and carbon paper
7. LEAST FAVORITE SMELLS? - fish, dove soap, poopoo diapers, lol
8. FAVORITE SOUND? - the sound of the dishwasher when I am trying to sleep
9.WORST FEELING IN THE WORLD? - being judged, being scared, being aloneone, noy being able to help others when they need it
10. WHAT IS THE FIRST THING YOU THINK OF WHEN YOU WAKE UP IN THE MORNING? - Fix my sons breakfeast and make coffee
11. FAVORITE COLOR? - yellow
12.HOW MANY RINGS BEFORE YOU ANSWER THE PHONE? -2
13. FUTURE CHILD'S NAME? - Girl: Lydia Elise (after my mother and hubbys mother) and a boy: Cameron Ellis (both family names)
14.WHAT IS MOST IMPORTANT IN LIFE? - love, family, friends
15. FAVORITE FOODS? - chinese food, and italian
16.CHOCOLATE OR VANILLA? - Chocolate
17.DO YOU LIKE TO DRIVE FAST? - it depends, i have and i can
18.DO YOU SLEEP WITH A STUFFED ANIMAL? No
19. STORMS - COOL OR SCARY? - it depnds on the lightening
20.WHAT TYPE WAS YOUR FIRST CAR? - Saturn
21.IF YOU COULD MEET ONE PERSON DEAD OR ALIVE? - Judy Garland or Marilyn Monroe
22. FAVORITE ALCOHOLIC DRINK? - Margarita on the rocks
23. WHAT IS YOUR ZODIAC SIGN? - Gemini
24.DO YOU EAT THE STEMS OF BROCCOLI? -nope, yuck
25.IF YOU COULD HAVE ANY JOB YOU WANTED, WHAT WOULD IT BE? therapist
26. YOU COULD DYE YOUR HAIR ANY COLOUR? - blonde
27. IN LOVE? yes
28.IS THE GLASS HALF EMPTY OR HALF FULL? - always half full
29.FAVORITE MOVIES? -unsure
30.DO YOU TYPE WITH YOUR FINGERS ON THE RIGHT KEYS? - yup
31.WHAT'S UNDER YOU BED? nothing at the moment,
32. WHAT IS YOUR FAVORITE NUMBER? - 6
33.FAVORITE SPORT TO WATCH? - soccer or football
34. FAVORITE MUSICAL ARTISTS? - kelly clarkson, carrie underwood, keith urban, ronan keaton, J-LO
35.FAVORITE TV SHOWS? - All My Children and One Life To Live
36.FAVORITE CITY? - Syndey, Australia
37.NAME OF FIRST PET? - Belle
38. FAVORITE SONG? - too hard...
39. FAVORITE ACTOR (male & female) - Ewan Mcgregor, Jennifer Lopez

[mariposa]

Name: Alicia

Age: 17

Height - 5'9"

Weight - 145

Hair color - brown and red

Eye color -brown

1.LIVING ARRANGEMENT - I live with my mom, soon I'm moving in with my cousin
2.WHAT BOOK ARE YOU READING NOW? Rule of the bone
3.WHAT'S ON YOUR MOUSE PAD? Don't have one
4. FAVORITE BOARD GAME? -Chess
5.FAVORITE MAGAZINE? - HYFY (health initiatives for youth)
6. FAVORITE SMELLS? - right before it rains, coffee, good food when I'm hungry
7. LEAST FAVORITE SMELLS? - vomit
8. FAVORITE SOUND? - gun shots
9.WORST FEELING IN THE WORLD? -apathy
10. WHAT IS THE FIRST THING YOU THINK OF WHEN YOU WAKE UP IN THE MORNING? - no f*ckin way it can be morning yet...I'll just hit snooze one more time.
11. FAVORITE COLOR? red
12.HOW MANY RINGS BEFORE YOU ANSWER THE PHONE? depends how close i am and who you are ;)/>
13. FUTURE CHILD'S NAME? - Mi'Kaela, Nicolas, Gabriela, Emmanuel, Javier, Riley
14.WHAT IS MOST IMPORTANT IN LIFE? - love, friendship, celebration, joy, connection and music
[/color]15. FAVORITE FOODS? - bacalao guisada (puerto rican stewed codfish) fresh mangos
[/color]16.CHOCOLATE OR VANILLA? Chocolate
17.DO YOU LIKE TO DRIVE FAST? - yes : D
18.DO YOU SLEEP WITH A STUFFED ANIMAL? like 10
19. STORMS - COOL OR SCARY? - way cool
20.WHAT TYPE WAS YOUR FIRST CAR? - well it WILL be a jaguar...hah hah yeah right, im sticking with my buss pass until I get a promotion.
21.IF YOU COULD MEET ONE PERSON DEAD OR ALIVE? - My great great great grandma. The oldest relative whos name we know. Cristina.
22. FAVORITE ALCOHOLIC DRINK? - Rum and coke.
23. WHAT IS YOUR ZODIAC SIGN? - Cancer
24.DO YOU EAT THE STEMS OF BROCCOLI? -yea
25.IF YOU COULD HAVE ANY JOB YOU WANTED, WHAT WOULD IT BE?Singer/Actress while also being a teacher for those things at a youth center
26. YOU COULD DYE YOUR HAIR ANY COLOUR? - dark dark brown with bright red highlights.
27. IN LOVE? not sure
28.IS THE GLASS HALF EMPTY OR HALF FULL? both
29.FAVORITE MOVIES? Dave Chapelle's Block Party, Rent, Inside Man
30.DO YOU TYPE WITH YOUR FINGERS ON THE RIGHT KEYS? no but i get the job done
31.WHAT'S UNDER YOU BED? a couch...its a loft.
32. WHAT IS YOUR FAVORITE NUMBER? - dont have one
33.FAVORITE SPORT TO WATCH? - street basketball
34. FAVORITE MUSICAL ARTISTS? Amel Lerriux, Sade, Zion I, Talib Kwei
Flii Sylz
35.FAVORITE TV SHOWS? - 6 feet under, South Park
36.FAVORITE CITY? - New York City
37.NAME OF FIRST PET? -Oliver
38. FAVORITE SONG? -right now: Soar by Christina Aquelara
39. FAVORITE ACTOR (male & female) - Rosari Dason, Denzel Washington

[freedomfighter]

I'm new to this, but this seemed a good starting point! Just want to say how brilliant this forum is, and what an inspiration you all are. Everyone seems so positive and strong. It's wonderful!

so...

Name: Faye

Age: 25

Height - 5'3"

Weight - 9 1/2 stone

Hair color - brown

Eye color -blue

1.LIVING ARRANGEMENT - Living with my mom and dad

2.WHAT BOOK ARE YOU READING NOW? Midnight by Dean Koonz

3.WHAT'S ON YOUR MOUSE PAD? On a Laptop

4. FAVORITE BOARD GAME? -Scrabble

5.FAVORITE MAGAZINE? - Empire or Total Film

6. FAVORITE SMELLS? - Freshly cut grass, bread baking, snow (yes it does smell!)

7. LEAST FAVORITE SMELLS? - strong aftershave

8. FAVORITE SOUND? - My doggies barking, heavy guitar or acoustic

9.WORST FEELING IN THE WORLD? -numbness

10. WHAT IS THE FIRST THING YOU THINK OF WHEN YOU WAKE UP IN THE MORNING? - At the moment "god is this real". Normally "god i hate mornings!"

11. FAVORITE COLOR? red and purple

12.HOW MANY RINGS BEFORE YOU ANSWER THE PHONE? er i don't normally count them!

13. FUTURE CHILD'S NAME? - MMM dunno. used to be joshua and shannon when i was younger

14.WHAT IS MOST IMPORTANT IN LIFE? - Love, family, friends. Being happy and getting through the bad times

15. FAVORITE FOODS? - Chicken

16.CHOCOLATE OR VANILLA? Chocolate

17.DO YOU LIKE TO DRIVE FAST? - not at the moment as i haven't passed yet, but probably will once i do

18.DO YOU SLEEP WITH A STUFFED ANIMAL? yeah have about 100 lol but normally sleep with a couple

19. STORMS - COOL OR SCARY? - Cool

20.WHAT TYPE WAS YOUR FIRST CAR? - 1968 VW Beetle (older than me)

21.IF YOU COULD MEET ONE PERSON DEAD OR ALIVE? - Kurt Cobain (nirvana)

22. FAVORITE ALCOHOLIC DRINK? - JD and coke on ice

23. WHAT IS YOUR ZODIAC SIGN? - Aquarius

24.DO YOU EAT THE STEMS OF BROCCOLI? -yeah

25.IF YOU COULD HAVE ANY JOB YOU WANTED, WHAT WOULD IT BE? Drama Teacher then maybe multi millionaire

26. YOU COULD DYE YOUR HAIR ANY COLOUR? - Already dyed it many colours like red the best

27. IN LOVE? Yes!

28.IS THE GLASS HALF EMPTY OR HALF FULL? Empty

29.FAVORITE MOVIES? Usual Suspects, pulp fiction, res dogs, romeo and julliet

30.DO YOU TYPE WITH YOUR FINGERS ON THE RIGHT KEYS? Eh? kinda

31.WHAT'S UNDER YOU BED? Lots of junk!

32. WHAT IS YOUR FAVORITE NUMBER? - 7

33.FAVORITE SPORT TO WATCH? - Footie

34. FAVORITE MUSICAL ARTISTS? Dave grohl, jack johnson...

35.FAVORITE TV SHOWS? - Lost, neighbours

36.FAVORITE CITY? - Sydney, Australia

37.NAME OF FIRST PET? -Tiny

38. FAVORITE SONG? -At the mo 'close your eyes' by a small band called Mesh29

39. FAVORITE ACTOR (male & female) - Johhny Depp and Kate Blanchett