The first time it happened, I tried to tell someone. No one would listen. I was laughed at and I was called a liar by my mother. I was five at the time.
The second time; I didn't bother to report it, even though it was someone else that time.
The third time, the person responsible tried to have me commited to a mental institution for 'outlandish acusations'.
And then it was my boyfriend who I lived with; and I had no other friends nor a support system.
The next time, I didn't think I could report being raped by a woman; as I myself am female. I didn't know if it still counted. ((Does it?))
The last time, I decked the man who tried. Broke his nose, in three places and a knuckle in my right hand. The violence didn't solve anything, though I did get away.
A plus, I suppose. But I really wish I didn't have to hit him.
I probably won't report them. I don't know if it would change anything. And while they may or may not do what they did to me to someone else; the statue of limitations has expired on three of them so what difference would it make?
I feel guilty; but at the same time, whenever I tried to tell someone before, they didn't believe me. And when I try to get help, things go from bad to worse.
I called a local help center in Tampa and the woman said that it would be 90 dollars since I wasn't a "high risk" case. So because I'm not going to kill myself I have to pay 90 bucks? I don't have that money. I don't have ANY money to spare. What the hell?
Edited by ScribeGirl13, 16 April 2008 - 03:55 PM.