Great Thread!
My greatest healing accomplishments are all summed up in the words of my favourite song below, but in my words...
1. I learned to understand what PTSD is and how it has affected me.
2. I learned to forgive myself for freezing when I was raped, and after too.
3. I learned that both of me, me and Zoe too, are different fragments of the same person and that neither of us are whole without the other.
4. I am learning to love her, and I hope she is learning to love me.
5. In therapy, I am processing hard memories and re-making the associations that are making my life make sense.
6. I have broken the silence!
7. I can tell my story now in words, and have done it here.
I am proud of myself. Thats an accomplishment too.
Love you all,
Renata
The Night of Her Insistence
She finally understood it, the sadness of her life
The weight of her emotion, the gravity of light
She looked into the back of her mind
To see where she had been
But all she saw was a secret
And she could not look in...
All those years of waiting
All those years of trying too hard
All those years of failing
Pushed her down too far
She wearies of the geographies
That tell her who she is
She chokes on her philosophies
And all that she has been...
When she finally put her foot down
She put her fears down too
She left them by the back door
And through the night she flew
Away from her emotions
Away from the tricks of time
Away from cruel devotions
She left them all behind...
It was the night of her insistence
It was the day she found her will
It was the dream she’d always harboured
And harbours still
It was the night of her configuration
All the pieces finally there
And in that light of transformation
She...
Finally understood it
The sadness of her life
The weight of her emotion
The gravity of light
She looked beyond the back of her mind
To see where she had been
And there she saw the secret
And now she looked in.
-The Wyrd Sisters
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