Thank you so much for posting this, Mistral. It was only a few days ago that I found this board. I was undecided as to whether or not I should post, but after seeing this post of yours I made up my mind. Right now I am starting to deal with what happened to me. I do not want to accept what happened, nor do I want to deal with how it's affected me. There is a part of me that thinks that I am not justified in feeling how I do and that what happened should not affect me as much as it does because, in relation to what others have experienced it seems like almost nothing. The logical, thinking part of me knows that I need to accept what happened, accept and believe that it's okay for me to be as hurt as I am over this, and to accept that I have to deal with what happened. The rest of me is fighting the logical part of me and does not want to listen. I am 19 years old and I have a history of depression, and am currently depressed and on medication. At this point I don't even have all of my feelings and thoughts sorted out. I'm confused, scared, and hurt (emotionally). As far as support goes, I have a wonderful boyfriend who is very encouraging and supportive and willing to do anything I ask of him. He has and is encouraging to deal with this, yet is not pushing me to do so. He realizes and understands that I may not be ready to take certain steps yet. I also have a few other very close friends who are supportive and encouraging and willing to do anything they can for me, and many other good friends as well. My parents know what happened, but they don't know much more than that. I don't really discuss this with them so they don't talk about it.
Thank you again, Mistral, for your post.
Quote: from mistral on 4:09 pm on July 7, 2001
*T* for those words.
I see so many people questioning Do I Deserve to Be Here? Let's settle this.
If it wasn't rape, if it was unwanted and inappropriate touching, you deserve to be here.