i am agoraphobic as well. i have around 5 safe places that i can be alone. i feel okay with my closest friend but get overwhelmed beyond a certain point-trouble being i never know when that might be. thankfully, all i have to say to her is 'i'm about done' and she KNOWS. agoraphobia is in degrees and i'm fighting it because it was actually worse. now i can get a few things during the day (i couldn't stand to be in crowds or to be seen so i would go at night) if need be (only one or two errands otherwise i panic), am attempting to do one pleasant thing out of my house every week during the day and for now those are my challenges. i go out for therapy (safe place) so i can not and will not count it as an outing. my car is safe. my friends' homes are pretty safe most of the time. it's very hard to explain and people think i'm avoiding them. my family is clueless. they think i'm super sensitive but they don't know the actual diagnosis. i've only just shared with my brother the PTSD diagnosis and told him that was why i have cancelled last minute sometimes because i freak. i WANT to be with certain people doing happy things but my mind won't let me.
just want you all to know you're not alone. i have figured out what the trigger was for this for me and why it got so much worse. i am beginning to have hope but it's hard, hard, hard. seems like i eat less the days i go out (like i have to be punished for being out) and i'm anorexic so it's kind of a double whammy but so far i've met my once a week out goal this year and i'm very pleased about that.
less than two years ago i could absolutely end up on the floor to reach out and get my mail so this is better. i know there are a couple of groups but i was worried that they would push people to get out more or tell people that being in all the time was okay. i wanted a grey area so i shared my goals with my T three weeks after i started (didn't want to jinx it! lol) and am doing alright.
did i mention this is hard? yeah. i really empathize. i send you hope and courage.
Thank you for replying. Congratulations to you on achieving your goals
, it does sound like you are going through so much. Your post has helped me a lot, maybe I could start setting some goals.