[NicPY82]

I have a lot I'm realizing. And others are also appearing. Just all seem so strange because some are just words.

*Having my arms and hands restrained in any way. (docs tried this recently and I freaked out)

*Seatbelts, I feel trapped

*closed spaces in cars. (the 4rth of July, I rode to the fireworks with family member and they wanted to put me in the middel but I started panicking)

*R word or jokes..someone on twitter did this recently and I went off

*blaming abuse victims in any way

*the span*** word (can't stand to even hear a parent say it and I will go off)

* belts or hearing them come undone

* I now hate the word panties so bad

* loud cars

* being alone in the dark at times

* Being in a crowd

* men staring at me even if it is innocent

* loud noises

* yelling, even if it isn't yelling directed at me

* anger even if it's not directed at me (feel bad it seems my bf can't be in a bad mood or I get scared and upset)

* pain..even if it's some other kind of pain not dealing with what happened... makes me remeber the physical pain

* blood

*needles (I always had a phobia of needles but now it's even worse)

* lying on my stomach makes me freak out

* storms

* Now hands and that's the weirdest one

* some sex talk

I have sooo many I may add more later...I am still figuring out what some of mine are.

This post has been edited by NicPY82: 05 July 2012 - 08:45 PM

[happyydays]

I've been reading all these replies for almost half an hour... You have all have given me strength.
I never truly admitted to myself that I have 'triggers'.. but hopefully compiling a list and writing it down will help me be more aware of my thoughts/actions.


Spread legs
Open bedroom doors
Alcohol-laced breath
Paranoia about my parents having sex (a weird, new one that only started a few months ago)
Surprising physical contact (ie. a hug from behind)
Cigarette smoke
When a male walks around in only underwear (especially my father or brother)
Being alone at night
Beds, especially my bed and bunk-beds.

And in general, any male that has passed, or is currently in, puberty makes me uncomfortable.. I need to get past that one for sure :(/>

This post has been edited by happyydays: 10 July 2012 - 04:11 AM

[LBinON]

• french blue sheets particularly with dark geometric patterns
  
• beards (stubble is fine just not full beards and only if the beard touches me)
  
• hiking boots with red laces
  
• purple therma-rests
  
• chrome barber style massagers

I have some others but these are my unusual ones

oh and it turns out ambulances with lights and sirens driving past me full tilt

This post has been edited by LBinON: 19 July 2012 - 09:14 AM

[relovelace]

Drunk men (I'm terrified to go out anymore)

Vommit

A certain cologne

Laying down with my arms above my head

Dirty songs about sex

Guys talking about sex

I probably have more but this is the first time I've thought about it. Good idea!

This post has been edited by relovelace: 18 July 2012 - 08:42 PM

[WhoThought]

Mine are pretty specific:

- If I worry my underwear is peaking out of my pants
- Burgundy pickup trucks
- Sleeves of clear plastic cups
- Watching people lock doors from the inside (not with a key)
- Other people mentioning that they need to take a shower
- People spitting on things (not just spitting on the ground)
- Talk about the morning after pill
- People eating eggs at night

[flowergirl51]

Belts. Haven't been able to speak the word in 55 yrs.

[shatteredAli]

I am a 7 year survivor of rape. It was a stranger rape...3 men broke into the house.

For me...my triggers I don't think are weird but I still have flashes and nightmares. I just started dating again this year. Only one relationship has been past two weeks. My boyfriend now...he is amazing. So loving but I met him online. I am scared to meet him. I don't know how to tell him that but even him looking at me freaks me out. I am so scared.

*being touched especially by men
*talking about sex
*sexual scenes in movies
*people following me

[BeautifullyBroken2]

The smell of beer.
The smell of cigarette smoke.
Someone touching/holding my wrists or arms.
Any sound in the night.
Being alone at night.
Being alone in the dark.

Some of these are worse than others. I can "prepare" myself to deal with the smell of beer and smoke, but if I smell it unexpectedly I automatically see his face. I can tolerate being alone at night if I stay busy until pure exhaustion where I basically pass out, but have to sleep with a light or tv on. I can't be alone in the dark without thinking he or someone is going to get me. And no matter who touches or hold my wrists it causes the worst response. It's been 12 years since I have had an encounter, but I don't think I will ever be able to handle that one.

[effy]

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This post has been edited by effy: 11 May 2013 - 05:34 PM

[s.j.]

The sound of fabric tearing
Washcloths
Taking a bath

[Abster]

Churches
The smell of incense or that musky smell old buildings have
Hearing hymns or chritmas carols
The smell of tea
Breakfast cereal
The feel of Satin or silk
Older men in their 60's / 70's especially if they have a beard. Its a weird one this as my abuser didnt have a beard.
Washing my face
Brushing my teeth
Having my hand stroked

[threetimes]

I keep finding new ones. Here's what I know of right now. There are others, but not related to SA.

Mustaches. With a beard or goatee is okay. Alone is a huge trigger.

Anything touching the front of my neck.

Roy Orbison music.

Sleeping in a bed.

Anyone close to my back.

“Three days growth” facial hair.

Bladder infections.

The word “lurk”.

The word “tease”.

The word “doll” as a term of endearment.

Hair being touched.

Being in someone's house.

Hugs.

Tardiness.

Dancing. Me dancing where anyone can see.

Being told I am “safe”.

The game “Twister”.

Certain food items, ie hot dogs, bananas, large pieces of fruit.

Brushing my teeth is often a trigger. Sometimes the brush. Sometimes the toothpaste.

Martina McBride's song “I'm Gonna Love You Through It”.

3X :butterfly:/> :tealribbon:/> :purpleribbon:/>

[spade1]

-Spreading my legs
-Heat
-Removing my bra
-Demeaning comments about women
-Semen or reference to it

[BR26]

The strangest trigger of all for me is seeing or being around anything having to do with Native American culture. This makes me feel slightly horrible because I am not a racist/prejudiced person but it happens to be a gigantic trigger for me because my abuse situation centered around reference to Red Cloud the Sioux Chief. Hence, I cannot go to pow wows, casinos, Native American stores. Seeing hawks flying in the sky is also a trigger for me stemming from reference to them as "protection" over and over. Feathers bother me as well. Axes, knives, stones, dream catchers are included.

[chantel2012]

The video game Skyrim

Star Wars (or anything associated with it)

Breathing or being kissed on or around my neck (something I used to love... He ruined it for me... a**hole)

Sometimes being f**gered will REALLY trigger me

S*x in general is triggering although not as bad as it once was... It is weird, it is usually hard for me to have s*x or to "get started" but once we start it is tolerable but then at other times during the middle of it I will just FREAK out and like cry and start to shake or I will just "blank out" and go inside of myself. My response varies and I never know how I will react so it is hard for me to have it now because I never know how I will react and it is embarrassing. :cry:/>

Guys who look or sound a certain way (voice tone I mean)

Guys with a certain name.....

Songs/Movies

Domestic Violence

Mind control/abuse

I have to stop I am starting to trigger myself.... :scared:/>

Thanks for this thread by the way! ♥♥♥♥ :thumbsup:/>



Chantel ♥