I thought it would help..
I thought it would help if I said that it just made a mistake instead of admitting that I've been assaulted and raped..
My ex (one of my attackers) talked to me about it and he said he was proud of me for coming to my senses. Because of him I should have had a one year old child, but thankfully I miscarried about a month into my pregnancy.
He told me that it was time to realize that it's happened to me over and over again because I'm too trusting and put myself out there.
I don't feel any better, but I don't know what else to do ...