I am scared, I am excited I am scared
This is my second round with Social Security. The first round I went through all the appeals and was denied. The first time around Social Security made appointments to be evaluated by their doctor and psychiatrist. That was not fun might have as well have let robots evaluate me.
The State of Colorado has me permanently disabled since I fell and broke my ankle and arm plus I am now more ill then I was the first time around cuz Social Security and even I did not know then that I had sleep apnea, anemia and a clotting disorder along with major depression, fibromyalgia, and COPD.
So since they are not sending me this time to any of their doctors for confirmation my gut is doing summersaults in the assumption that they are taking the word of my doctors and hospital documents. Or am I just being presumptuous and wishful and delusional?
It is pretty sad that I sound so happy about being more ill but I am going on five years being a burden to my family. If they do approve me I will get arrears payment back to November 2010. I am guestimating that amount to be about $30,000.00. That would mean paying most of my debt to my mother so she can stop being a martyr and making the severe sacrifices she is in helping me, her own flesh in blood daughter even though she is worth at least monetarily anyway close to half a million. I would then get to take care of my own finances and live alone with my pets.
Then I invision and am afraid that Social Security is sick of dealing with me so they are not making any appointments and are going to say never apply again.
I am not telling anyone in my rl what I just was told. I will tell them when I feel like it.
What do any of you think. This conversation is good news or bad news?
Blessings to all