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a realization...

Posted by missophelia , 25 May 2014 · 60 views

I have been listening to this recording I made in my therapy session last week.  It has been extremely difficult. 
 
Painful.
 
But I am starting to realize something.
 
I never really cried for the me that died that night.  I never really mourned. 
 
I never really grieved.
 
I feel like I am in the process of doing that.
 
Mourning for the me that died.
 
And in listening to my self speak the words that tell what he did to me, I can hear the hurt, the pain that he caused me. 
 
Maybe hearing my own voice, my own words, as I speak of that night, will help  me to finally  be able to truly treat my self kindly, gently, and with compassion.
 
Maybe one day.
 
Namaste



(((missophelia)))

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missophelia
May 26 2014 07:50 PM

Thank you bellachai, my friend.

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verityclare
May 28 2014 02:42 AM
That grieving process is so important. I'm glad that you're feeling like you can start to walk that path back to being gentle with yourself. It's difficult, I know.
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missophelia
May 28 2014 04:09 PM

verityclare,

 

It is very difficult, and I am sorry that you have to know how difficult it is. 

 

I think  that I can now  see how the grieving process is so important.

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