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Overall, I had a really good day. When I was at work though, I heard a song that reminded me of him, and I instantly felt trapped. I got dizzy and I swear I haven't felt like that since I was in college. It took about 5 minutes before I felt fine again, but that really scared me.
Anyways, that's all. I've been reading some of the Forums on here and they seem to help. I feel like I can connect to a few people on here, and I don't think that some of the things happening to me (time gaps in memory of the night it happened, feeling like it didn't happen at all, my friends leaving me, ect.) are as strange anymore, which kind of gives me some peace.
On another note, I'm afraid of our family Christmas party. It was after that party last year, when it happened. I feel like being there this year will bring back some memories, and that I'll have trouble getting through the party. But it seems silly to be like, "hey, I'm not coming to a function where our entire family will be this year". But I don't know what else to do. I'm also afraid that I'll be asked to work on that day...and I don't want to be pessimistic, but I honestly don't think I'll be getting any better the closer the day gets.
Any advice from anyone reading?
I'm just so confused....I'm thinking of talking to my therapist this week about coming more than once a week for awhile...maybe that will help me.
Anyways, that's all. I've been reading some of the Forums on here and they seem to help. I feel like I can connect to a few people on here, and I don't think that some of the things happening to me (time gaps in memory of the night it happened, feeling like it didn't happen at all, my friends leaving me, ect.) are as strange anymore, which kind of gives me some peace.
On another note, I'm afraid of our family Christmas party. It was after that party last year, when it happened. I feel like being there this year will bring back some memories, and that I'll have trouble getting through the party. But it seems silly to be like, "hey, I'm not coming to a function where our entire family will be this year". But I don't know what else to do. I'm also afraid that I'll be asked to work on that day...and I don't want to be pessimistic, but I honestly don't think I'll be getting any better the closer the day gets.
Any advice from anyone reading?
I'm just so confused....I'm thinking of talking to my therapist this week about coming more than once a week for awhile...maybe that will help me.
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