I want him to pay
I was raped again. I can't believe it. The man I went to when I was hurting, a man I told everything too. He raped me. How could he be so cruel. I am proud that I realized it was rape only a year after it happened, since the other attacks took me 4 years to come to terms with. But again?! WHY!!!! I don't know what to do. Before we started hooking up I heard rumors of him raping another girl. He told me it was a lie, other people backed him up, stupid me. I was blinded by attraction, I should have known. Especially when he joked about me getting raped. That fucking pig. Why didn't I leave right then and there?! Nope, I stayed, and he raped me. I don't know what to do now. It has been a year, there is no evidence, we hooked up for a while even after, I still see him randomly, He is my fucking neighbor. My kitchen window is directly across from his bedroom window, now it makes me sick. Should I let our mutual friends know that he is a pig?! I wan't him to pay. I never pressed charges on the other two men, I was to afraid. But I want this one to pay.