My Epiphany for the day ( I dont know how to spell Epiphany) :) lol

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My Epiphany for the day ( I dont know how to spell Epiphany) :) lol

09 November 2012

Posted by sherodon

Sometimes when deciding whether to fix something or throw it out, is thinking about the time and trouble it would take to fix it, not about the time and trouble you gave before to fix it, but the days and fun you could be having in place of having it move forward, instead of thinking about what your losing by letting it go, think about the all the time your wasting by holding on to something so shattered . . . . . leave the pieces on the floor and walk away, nothing is really being fixed the good life is only bein held on pause while disaster drags on the sooner you walk away is the sooner you'll look back and see it as your past, instead of your present, especially when you know you dont want to see it in your future. Fixing a relationship is not gonna fix a person. Sometimes is so hard to see, but how could your vision be clear with all them tears?? If you wipe away the mess then it's easier to see what you've been working with the the entire time . . . . .

People may change but I wont be around to care, especially since i am already so far gone.

I posted all that on facebook but I still feel like blabbering.

I never decided to end this relationship. I decided to do something that I knew would end it for me. I couldnt make the decision on my own because I had been hurt to much to let go of something that I had put so much into, or that had taken so much away from me.

I miss him every day. With my entire being I miss him. My stomach churns thinking about him. I love him.

But it's over. And I'm happy. I cant get into all of the improvements of myself that I have noticed over these past few months, but there sure is alot.

And as much as hitting him up sounds so fucking appealing. . . . . . . . . .He isnt in my recently contacted. And he never fucking will be.

I'm bored I'm lonely I'm hungry and I MISS him. But being raped felt worse. Being hit felt worse. And losing control of my spirit mind and body, felt the absolute worst.

I'm fucking done. So since I never got to officially end our relationship.

I broke up with him. Right now I'm breaking up with him. This is my closure and It's over. I'm shutting the door and there is no more nine thousand five hundred chances. I'm moving on.

I'm fucking done.

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