Peeved and freaked out
I remember in therapy; baby steps.
I feel anger, confusion, worry, suspicious, resentment, irratated and disturbed lately. Anxiety level is high. My sleep patterns are so messed up like I never went to bed last night. My daughter tells me that I am also paranoid. Perhaps.
I am finding the people in my life annoying with what they say and do.
I sometimes think that what I feel is child like. Is my inner child surfacing telling me it is time to grieve all the abuse us endured. But I don't know for sure. I then feel guilty or selfish or self-absorbed for feeling this way. I am not even saying this right; what I feel and have withdrawn inside of me. Dissociating/isolating??
All I know is I want to stay away from the people in my life. so far I have not lost my cool cuz I am so good at detaching from what feels icky.
Sorry I don't think I make sense.
Blessings to all