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Posted by amandaunderthepink , 10 August 2012 · 16 views

It's all I can do to keep from screaming. Or crying. I have to keep my mouth shut. I can't tell. My T wants me to talk about IT-the abuse by my brother, the denial from my family. It was all my fault and I know it and that's why Im so screwed up and my mind won't shut off. I am a horrible person. I could have done something-but he was bigger than me even if he is younger. I was scared and now I am paying and I don't wanna pay anymore. Life should be fun to a point. My life isn't fun anymore and I figure whats the point? I try and try and it gets me nowhere. I am so tired and can't hold my head up any more. It's too hard, my shame is too great and I don't know what to do any more. please please help me.



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shatteredAli
Aug 10 2012 09:38 PM
Amanda,

Please don't give in. please keep fighting on. Its so hard. I know. I understand how hard it is. I didn't experience the abuse you did but I understand the damage. Please keep fighting.

I know that its so hard but I am praying for you. You are so brave to come here and talk about the abuse. Please I encourage you to tell. Talk about it.

My heart is with you.

<3
Alison

April 2014

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