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I need you more then ever

Posted by KOD , 26 March 2012 · 62 views

Why can't I just hate you like a normal person?
Didn't even have the decency to tell me you found someone else.
Just stopped talking to me.
Ignored every kind word.
Every I love you apparently in vein.
I know you doing what you got to do in your mind.
How does hurting me help you heal?
How does making me want to die make your life better?
I didn't fucking do this to you.
Why do I have to do the time for the crime of a sick mother fucker?
Look me yall I'm the big failure.

Why won't God listen?
I need your help more then ever.
But you're just like her.
Ignoring me no mater how much I scream.
Take My car, take my cash, take my job,
but save her please!

But on the real if this is how things are going to be.
Take me out this bitch right now.
get out of here I can do this with god
But with him all you're going to be is shit on.
Fuck yourself on that note That's not his plan for me!
Race that so called WRX against me for this.
What if you win?
I get your soul. Even though It's basically mine anyway.
Fuck you what If I win.
You win, I take the trauma away.
I'll nos my car out on that tip.
I'll go 100 mph engine will never explode for this cause.
I got nothing to lose because I'm tired of living this lie.
I would rather die.

Why won't God listen?
I need your help more then ever.
But you're just like her.
Ignoring me no mater how much I scream.
Take My car, take my cash, take my job,
but save her please!

Everything to gain and Nothing to lose
I would give my all just to see her smile.
So what is my soul worth to him anyway?
Why can't she see what she's done for me.
She's set me free from a life of mundane habit.
Engine let go just like my brain and my soul has been sold.
Tires lost grip in to the trees because the rubber is cold.
I get the escape that I desperately need.
Sorry to all the paramedics that are watching me bleed.
running out of time losin my mind i need to smoke a blunt just too stay afloat
Now I could have helped you and instead you sleept on me?
Therefore I lost my life and soul at the race just to be the kind of guy that proves his love and affection?
What would you have done in my situation?

Why won't God listen?
I need your help more then ever.
But you're just like her.
Ignoring me no mater how much I scream.
Take My car, take my cash, take my job,
but save her please!

My soul has been taken from me!
I'm never going to understand why it had to be this way.
I'll be forever lost in my zone.
Empty and hollow, easier that way.
You took my lady and my soul away from me.
How you like me now? Hatin asshole!!!
I'll never trust your smiling face.
Because of the heartless actions you took that day
She act like we never seen each other in the light of day.
What gets worse is the fact that she's going through all these emotions
and I can't be there to help her through it.
That's all I wanted and I gave it all up for her just to say
Maybe hopefully she'll get back to me someday.
Oh wait.....I'm dead.......FUCK

I wouldn't do this.



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blondie2002
Mar 27 2012 12:28 AM
Interesting. I know you wouldn't seriously hurt yourself, but I hope writeing in your Pandys blog helped.

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