[crocdesatin]

a hand on my neck
my boyfriend raising his eyesbrows (like he wants to be naughty)
fat/large male hands
my pets grooming themselves, i dont know why but i absolutely hate the noise it makes.(may have nothing to do with it)
being in a large group of people, like a party where i know them.

i bet there are more but thats all for now

[Ozzo]

Umm let's see...

Pasty skin
Sides of houses (like backyard)
Some kinds of acne scars (which sucks because I have some of those scars)
Certain types of cars
That name
Specific smell (wish I knew what it was…)
Feeling pinned down (like if someone is laying on top of me)
Anyone that really looks like him (which kinda goes with the pasty skin)

So not so bad. :)/>

[ai4wo2zi4ji3]

the thought of my boyfriend in my house/bedroom (we've only hung out at his place)

streets with certain architecture

the thought of being intimate in a bedroom (we're sticking to the couch for now)

[Nessie3]

I didn't think I had many. At least no strange ones. Until I started reading.

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[ilubnotbeingyew]

-the names of those who have hurt me

-my back being touched when I don't have a shirt on

-Bedrooms with a lot of things on the walls (posters, pictures, etc)

[toys]

Having somebody snap my bra straps.
People walking out of the room if we're having a serious conversation.
And ummm... having no hair "down there" or guys who talk about liking/wanting a girl to be shaved.

[ShawnCrane]

To Jennifer: The movie that you talked about with Brad Pitt, Morgan Freeman, and Gwenyth Paltrow is called Se7en.

My triggers:

Not being able to write neatly
Loud noises
Forced/pinned down
Eyeglasses
People with his name
His relation to me (family)
Rape scenes in movies
Hands on my neck
Things tied around my neck
Hardwood floors
Yankees baseball team
People who think they know it all
People who judge and label
A.A.
Talking about what happened
Reading about rape
Shower curtains
Grocery shopping
Large crowds
Eye contact
Worms
Snakes
People who bully others
People who think they're God's greatest gift to mankind
Deep water
People who are in a position to help but choose not to
Rape jokes
People who take advantage of others
N.M.
Being alone
Always looking for the exit and/or quickest way to get out of a building
Rugs
White t-shirts (solid color or with designs)
Feeling helpless

There are more, but that's all I can think of for now.

I noticed a few mentioned the band Insane Clown Posse. I'd like to talk about them real quick.

I am a die-hard fan, aka Juggalo for life. I first started listening to the group at the age of thirteen. I'm almost thirty now. A lot of people hate their music because the level of violence. But that's not what all their music is, which goes for any other artist on Psychopathic Records. If it wasn't for ICP, Twiztid, Blaze, ABK, Dark Lotus, Esham, Natas, Tech N9ne, etc. (I'd like to add in Slipknot, Stone Sour, and Metallica to the list) I wouldn't be alive. Their music got me through the worst times and saved my life. There's a much deeper and positive message in and behind their music. You have to be in the world to know what it's all about. Being a Juggalo is who I am, with every breath I take until my dying day.

ShawnCrane.

[ray1986]

Doctors. Hospitals. Hospital Gowns. Medical staff of any sort, particularly men. Every time i have to go the the ER or a doc it throws me off for days. Eastern medical practices are much better but still hard.
Exception: Planned Parenthood - I've always felt safe there. And good when I leave.
My son is two and he has yet to see a doctor. Ever. He was born with a midwife and room full of family, doula's, and friends a mile from the hospital.

Cops. I used to start shaking when I encountered cops. I'd shut down to the point where I couldn't communicate. Now I just feel sick and angry and it sets me on edge for a day or so.

Any mention of military schools.

boy's mountain bikes (kid sized) but only if they are black

Some extremely skinny women, particularly if they're blond, short haired, and sorta punk rock.

Black SUV's

Ticky Tacky Houses - particularly if they are all white.

White Gazebos

This post has been edited by ray1986: 09 January 2013 - 07:07 AM

[unicorn4]

Dentists. Brushing my teeth (sometimes, not all the time), mostly because I don't like the toothpaste in my mouth...it makes me gag.

Yelling. Name calling. My husband has this really bad habit of trying to sound mean and macho to the pets when he's mad at them (usually after he's been working out) and I find that incredibly triggering.

[seedbecomesarose]

Okay, I just read the rules for triggering so I will add that to mine. This may trigger as some of mine are related to RA.
These are my triggers
Polo, Eternity and another cologne
"white" conditioner
white lotions
all of the houses where the abuse took place with all of the abusers
funeral homes
the color blue
the color orange
certain names
facial hair in all its forms - my ex tried them all but the worst was a full beard and the half moustache and goatee
when someone says "oral" or "anal" sex - triggers rage
seeing scantily clad people pop up on my computer when I don't want it and I don't
certain names that were called to me
the name of a certain flower
remodeling
tools
sometimes spiritual things
seeing or thinking of farm animals
men grouped together
whip
guns
tie
handcuffs
needles
blood
chauvinistic men
throw up
dirty jokes
seeing pregnant women
Did I say facial hair? That's been a very big one. I didn't realize how big until lately but getting better. I particularly picked a therapist who looked a little similar to ex in order to work through my fears.
Therapist himself just because of his age (about when my ex left and the worst abuse happened and same height and facial hair and color of hair). Lot of projection going on lately.
Certain foods - bananas, zucchini, phallic shaped
There's more but that's all for now. They are weird enough to me.

[tootsyjlm]

Peeling potatoes!

[LionessCub]

birthdays :bawling:/>

[ShawnCrane]

People who stare.

[jlandrith]

Pregnant women. The woman who did it was pregnant. She made me fear something that should be seen as beautiful. I'm getting better with this one over time. I no longer recoil as I once did, but I will experience varying levels of anxiety in their presence. I will quickly spot and focus on a pregnant woman in any given environment (room, mass transit, etc.) before I even know that is what is happening. I guess that is some form of mental self-defense.

This post has been edited by jlandrith: 22 January 2013 - 10:23 PM

[Roaring_Gryphon]

Taking off my shoes, or being told to do so.

There, I said it.