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fuck wat have i done

It was in my head and I had to get it out. I was evasive about it wen I wrote it. but u can tell what I'm talking about. I was stupid and put it on two separate blogs. Public blogs. I don't know why. I do know why. I want help so bad I want people to know why I'm like this. I hate it. i hate every part of it and i want it out. wat the fuck is wrong with me? now i have to figure out wat i'm going to say. i have to lie. i can't tell. i want to tell so bad. so bad. i need a drink.




He's angry and he rips at her. He smacks her over and over again until she learns not to make a sound. He throws her like a ragdoll clawing at her and degrading her with his words. She is shaking and can't stop. When she looks at his eyes she can see he is enjoying this. It makes her sick and so scared. Her cries for help are laughed at. She is hit again and again. She goes to a place he can't find her. somewhere in her own head. it's safe there....sometimes.
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(((((((Amy)))))))

Are you safe?

You make me a bit worried... :(

Take care, OK?
We are here for you, you are safe here. We all do understand. foreverhurt
Yes I'm safe. He is in another state. It was just a memory that I needed to write. I don't know why. But honestly it made me feel sane. I made it third person becuz it's just easier that way.
I'm SOOO happy to hear that you are OK :)

:dancingpanda:

Write most of my stuff in 3rd person too... otherwise, my mind just blows up and it all get out of control...

So.. learning that you are safe is good... I hope it stays that way.

Take lots of care

:hug: -if OK?
im glad that u r safe as well....some of the stuff that i read on here brings me back to when i was sa. but being on here helps its like everybody really cares and really do understand you...but your blogs and posts really reach me and draw me mainly cause wat your going thru i have went thru
Gladys75 How did you get help? I'm trying to get over it. It just won't go away. I'm going to hopefully get counselling finally.
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