What is self contempt?
Instead of dealing with shame and sorrow/sadness regarding the sexual pleasure, rage is directed at ones own self to feel in control. Self contempt examples, I hate myself, I am such a whore, I am so stupid etc. "Someone must be punished, so we punish ourselves" However, I have found that holding on to contempt does not allow me to deal with any of the underlining emotions! This makes my mission impossible!
The first step is awareness of the self contempt. The SA book and workbook that mentions this is called The Wounded Heart: Hope for victims of childhood sexual abuse By Dr Dan B. Allender)))))))))))))
Special Note: As I began reading the book and learning about self contempt, I had bad dreams, nightmares, and visions on day one. As usual, no pain, no gain. Darn it!