so my aunt was here. and body memories. and 6 month thing.
And during that time - my aunt's visit I mean - I realized the last time I saw her was .yeah. last Dec. for Xmas. which was when I realized I'd been r*ped again. um. actually I realized it probably....... Dec, 23rd which was before Xmas Eve.
I mean idk in a way even though I'm not fully aware of it it's a trigger. that Cindy was here.
So in other relevant news I've been having body memories again. oh good. and flashbacks. damnit.
the 6 month thing. oh wait I miscounted. um. No wait so it was *August* 17th was 6 months since I last saw 'his' friends. my bad sorry. not Sept. 17th. [Aug. 17th was also my 26th, so].
And the 13th of Aug. was 6 months since my friend Sage [again, the same person as Pat] had.um. 'left'............yeah.
And Oct. 3rd it'll be 6 months since something else happened.
Oct. 14th 9 yrs.
Dec. 22nd......well........a year.