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Guess, it is just time to go there again. Need to try to deal with the emotions and reality of it once again, off and on it comes. It has been off for a while, guess it is time again.
It is easy to not think about it, to minimize it, to still sometimes wonder if maybe, possibly I have it all wrong. Maybe it was not all that bad, but then looking back I realize, yeah it was really that bad, it really was. He was a monster, yeah he is old now, he is different, he seems to want our love now, but he is still that same man. He was dangerous, scary, and had complete control over us all. He was that bad, and yes he is my father, I have his blood running through my veins. I am part of him, and he was a monster.
Yes, it was that bad, my neighbor, my stalker, he was that bad, he was that scary, it was that scary, it was that bad. It all was that bad, now I just wish there was someone that knew, and validated to me that yes, it was that bad. Someone to agree, to validate, to tell me that is not all in my head, yes your life was that bad, it was horrible, it was a nightmare, and I am so, so sorry that you went through living hell, and had no one to turn to, I am sorry. Wish there was someone to say that so that I could believe it.
It is easy to not think about it, to minimize it, to still sometimes wonder if maybe, possibly I have it all wrong. Maybe it was not all that bad, but then looking back I realize, yeah it was really that bad, it really was. He was a monster, yeah he is old now, he is different, he seems to want our love now, but he is still that same man. He was dangerous, scary, and had complete control over us all. He was that bad, and yes he is my father, I have his blood running through my veins. I am part of him, and he was a monster.
Yes, it was that bad, my neighbor, my stalker, he was that bad, he was that scary, it was that scary, it was that bad. It all was that bad, now I just wish there was someone that knew, and validated to me that yes, it was that bad. Someone to agree, to validate, to tell me that is not all in my head, yes your life was that bad, it was horrible, it was a nightmare, and I am so, so sorry that you went through living hell, and had no one to turn to, I am sorry. Wish there was someone to say that so that I could believe it.
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Take good care of you. Blessings
I KNOW you can take back your life. Hang in there and take care of you.
YOU matter, your worth winning this battle that still is hanging over you.
Hugs thoughts and blessings.