I made pancakes and a fruit bowl this morning for the family. I really hope they enjoy having a hot breakfast before there big days. Son has football today.
So my company left late. That kind of upset me because it was more time that I had to pretend I was perfectly normal/sane. I can not describe that feeling but I do feel out of place alot when I really shouldn't. And to top off on MORE then 3 occassion SA came up in conversations. It is SOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOO hard to just smile sometimes. I am glad they left. I do think my situation is going to cut me off from some of my relatives. I just really felt myself wanting to smack them. (My mother and my sister in law were visiting) However I talked to my counselor about it and was told that my behavoir with naive people is the norm. I lived in their world once. Without this and without the understanding. I would be a hypocrite to be angry at them. I don't know still pondering the theories. I hate it when I do something wrong. I really dislike making mistakes esp. with people and to myself.
Goal for today is to find my truck title because I am selling my truck. I want to buy a new Jeep Wrangler so that I can do more nature hiking. Jeep can handle the rugged terrains. But we have been remodling the house so wish me luck. All my paperwork is buried under my nic-naks.
I have missed my blog. More importantly I have MSSED this site and my friends!!! I hope you are all wonderful today.