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(I feel really really judged, which a lot of it is legit because I was lying about things like going to the hospital because that was what she'd suggest and I wanted to please her even though hospital was not helpful for me. I was lying about things so I could look like I was handling them. That I wasn't being a mess and useless. That I was being proactive. That I was capable).
(And I heard 'you sound okay' today after I came really close to actually going to the ER because Mental Health Reasons (really really suicidal, really really suddenly, managed to calm myself down, called up to cancel meet up tomorrow because I've got doctors appointment and that's about all I can handle. But am also meeting other friend, the friend I texted today when I was freaking out because although I made plans with friend 1 beforehand I want to see friend 2 because she knows this shit and I just cannot handle friend 1 right now at all).
(I feel judged. I feel judged so so much and I'm really really tired of it and I wish I hadn't told her anything. Literally anything).
(Am I terrible and selfish for this? I probably am really. I just...I don't want to deal with her. I don't).