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It is very frustrating, and I hate it.
The fact that, at times, I wish I felt like I was healing.
Pair that with the fact that, at times, I don't care. At times, I don't want to heal.
I don't know if it's simply my depression talking. Or my anxiety.
But it's just so frustrating, because I can get to the point where I want to work hard at my healing. And then, it's like I suddenly just turn totally the other way, and I don't want to do anything to help myself heal.
And then I get angry. Mostly at myself.
And that just doesn't help.
And then I get more depressed. More anxious.
And then I want to SI. Or I feel like I could care less if I was even alive.
I don't know if any of that makes any sense to anyone. Can anyone relate?
It's like this horrid rollercoaster ride. And I wish I could get off.
The fact that, at times, I wish I felt like I was healing.
Pair that with the fact that, at times, I don't care. At times, I don't want to heal.
I don't know if it's simply my depression talking. Or my anxiety.
But it's just so frustrating, because I can get to the point where I want to work hard at my healing. And then, it's like I suddenly just turn totally the other way, and I don't want to do anything to help myself heal.
And then I get angry. Mostly at myself.
And that just doesn't help.
And then I get more depressed. More anxious.
And then I want to SI. Or I feel like I could care less if I was even alive.
I don't know if any of that makes any sense to anyone. Can anyone relate?
It's like this horrid rollercoaster ride. And I wish I could get off.
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Much Love!
Thank you for your continued encouragement and support. It feels good, and I know I need it right now.
I will hold onto whatever I can.
Lots of love!
but i swing between wanting to recover and have a life, and wanting to hurt myself or quit, all the time...
sending ((((hugs)))).
I'm sorry you can relate.
It's what I've been struggling with now, for quite some time. Just swinging back and forth, like you said. And I'm sorry it's like that for you.
sending ((((hugs)))) to you too.