Learning More...Sharing More?
Recently I've been having some pretty vivid flashbacks of what happened to me and I'm not really sure how to deal with them. I'm a little angry at myself for not remembering these things until now (7 months later ), so I couldn't tell the detective or anyone involved in my legal process exactly what happened to me because I didn't remember. So now I have a pretty good, and far too vivid, idea of what happened to me and I'm not sure what to do about it. I have a T session in a week, and I've been writing it down, but I feel like maybe it's time to tell my BF a little more.
It's just that I know it will be incredibly hard for him to hear these things, and I don't know if he's ready, or will ever be ready, to hear exactly what happened to me. He deserves to be a part of my healing process and he deserves to hear these new developments in my story. But there's some doubt in me...and besides, I'm not even sure if I can say out loud the things that happened to me.
Maybe I'll write a letter...words always seem to come easier when they are written down rather than spoken.