I know that control is an illusion. One cannot MAKE anyone do anything unless blackmail is a factor especially emotional blackmail. That is game I never played but I did control myself in all things.
I know there is no such thing as perfection but my purposes were to be the best daughter, the best girlfriend, the best wife, the best mother, the best employee, the best at keeping my home neat and clean, the best person I could be.
I followed the rules of life, obeyed laws whether I agreed with them or not cuz that is how I could attain being the best of everything. I treated others like I would want to be treated.
My health failed me. Now all the purposes of my life are gone just like my dreams were shattered.
I don't see any purpose for me anymore. I am a burden to my family. All my friends faded out of my life. My children are grown. I am not a wife anymore and I will never have a boyfriend. Prince charming is not coming for me. I cannot work anymore. I cannot keep my home and yard as clean as I would like it to be like it use to be.
I have nothing therefore I must be nothing.
Blessings to all