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Peeved and freaked out

Posted by bellachai , 10 June 2013 · 108 views

I have so much going on in my head that I need to regurgitate all of it but not all at once.

I remember in therapy; baby steps.

I feel anger, confusion, worry, suspicious, resentment, irratated and disturbed lately. Anxiety level is high. My sleep patterns are so messed up like I never went to bed last night. My daughter tells me that I am also paranoid. Perhaps.

I am finding the people in my life annoying with what they say and do.

I sometimes think that what I feel is child like. Is my inner child surfacing telling me it is time to grieve all the abuse us endured. But I don't know for sure. I then feel guilty or selfish or self-absorbed for feeling this way. I am not even saying this right; what I feel and have withdrawn inside of me. Dissociating/isolating??

All I know is I want to stay away from the people in my life. so far I have not lost my cool cuz I am so good at detaching from what feels icky.

Sorry I don't think I make sense.

Blessings to all

(((((love you)))))

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