I feel like I'm on the edge of something right now though, so I'm back. I have a lot of issues with sex. It's hard to put my finger on it, but it's as though my mind's connection between sex and value is completely overpowering. It's like I sometimes become a different person when sex is involved. It's particularly bad when I have exposure to misogynists or dominant masculinity. I loose control. It's as if I want to be an object, but like I feel worthless if I'm not. I get jealous really easily, and feel insecure a lot. But anyway, something's happening right now and I don't know where my mind is going to go with it. I was doing so well too.