so tired, and hurting...
I am so tired. Physically, and emotionally. And of everything I go through and do every day.
And my body hurts. I feel ravaged by something inside of me. The lyme disease is not being kind.
I am trying a change in my diet to help with the symptoms. But it is slow going. And for the first time in over 2 years, I have been having pain as related to my IBS, because the lyme has changed something in my system.
But beyond all of that, I am tired of all I am trying to do in regards to my healing, and the fact that I am not making much progress.
I got triggered the other day, I wrote about it in my last blog post. I then had a nightmare. A pretty bad one.
I have been pretty badly depressed. I still am.
And I have been feeling suicidal. I still am feeling that way.
I am just so tired, and hurting. Physically, emotionally, and mentally.
I saw my psych doc this afternoon. Tomorrow morning, I have therapy.
Today, my psych doc asked me, and wondered aloud, if I need to be hospitalized. And she said out loud, that giving me medication at this point is out of the question. Guess me exceeding the prescribed dosage is a concern of hers.
I am just so tired, and I am hurting. In all ways possible.