how do I...
My car has died. So, I need to get a new one. Which I will do this coming week.
With my father's help.
I am 49 years old, and I have to ask my father for help.
Makes me feel like a big fat loser.
I shouldn't need my 71 year old father's help to buy a stinking car.
So, here I sit. All day, I've been struggling with self hatred, and urges to SI.