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Posted by missophelia , 29 August 2013 · 54 views

In the end, it all came down to the same thing. He was a man, much like every other man I had ever known, much like every other man I had ever let into my life. There was nothing that set him apart. There was no special spark from within him. Not anymore. To say I was disappointed, that is the least of it. I felt let down, like all of my past lives had come full circle to slap my face and wake me to the realities of what this would hold for me. To the realities that it could never be any different for me.

And in the end, I withdrew back into that world of comfort, that world of safety and familiarity. I became as one with myself, reassured that never again would I be subject to the disillusionment that some different kind of life could ever become a reality for me. And I remained there for many years. Forced to grow happy with only the sight of my own face, to be content with only the inner workings of my own mind. Alone, lonely, and at peace, keeping the world at arms length or beyond, I became a solitary woman.



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