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Blew up at my family back in october. Havent seen anyone since January. I've apologized for things said etc. but I still am treated like the outcast of the family. I've come to terms with that and I'm kind of ok with it...but they're still my siblings. (our parents are both deceased).
SO....Friday, I wrote my one sister an email to let her know that me & the kids are doing ok...and that the way they tried to help me; (they did an intervention to tell me I had mental issues and wrote down everything they don't like about me then made me sit there and listen to it all.) not to do that to anyone again because it hurt me very deeply emotionally to know that I was being judged and disliked by my own family on so many different levels...but then they are still going to call it "Helping" me. Whatever.
I also included that though we were raised in the same house...we were NOT raised in the same household. (my 2 sisters are 20 years older than me).
Seeing your father on oxygen at the age of 13 is much different than seeing that at 33 years old.
Burying your father at age 17 is MUCH different than doing it at 37 years old.
burying your Mother at age 27 is MUCH different than burying her at 47.
Why can't she see that? I told her I'm not taking away from her loss....she just needs to understand that it may have affected me differently than my brothers and sisters because of my age at the time of all of this.
ON TOP OF THAT....(sorry to be so long) - I was breaking the ice to see how much support I would have from my family concerning me being Bi-Polar and BPD, and she started talking to me like I was a mental case! "Seanna, I don't want to upset you, it's not good for your state". WTF????? Then Quit setting me off!!! and LOOK at things from my point of view! You don't have to agree wtih me, but at least consider my version of what happened in MY Life!!!!!
Ok...so, the whole point of this conversation tonight was to try to break the ice and see her reaction to my "mental state" because I was considering also revealing I have PTSD from my "experience - I call it" My family doesn't know at all, and it's eating away at me.
I just don't know what to do. I'm not going to have the support I need from them...but at the same time I want them to try to understand what I'm going through which will possibly explain my temper, mood swings etc.
Please some input. Sorry if this was long and hard to follow. I hate typing angry.
Source: HUGE argument with my sister....