where I am...
It's just like the way I feel has got some kind of grip on me.
I can't seem to shake loose of the feelings.
Right now, I hate my life.
Right now, I hate me.
I don't know what to do. Everything I try, everything that has worked for me in the past, everything is not helping.
Everything except SI'ing.
At this point, in my mind, with my emotions the way they've been, that is all that has helped.
I feel stuck, lost.
And I keep trying to stop feeling like I'm done. But that's where my mind and my thoughts keep going.
That I'm done. That I don't want to go on.
I know. That sounds really depressing.
But that's where I am.