Help
Welcome to Pandora's Aquarium, a rape, sexual assault, and sexual abuse survivor message board and chat room.
If you've been a victim of any type of sexual violence, you belong here. What you see below represents just a fraction of the resources and survivor support available. Register now to join our community and take full advantage of what this online support group has to offer you as you heal and recover, or sign in to remove this message.
You are not alone, we can support you as you heal, and you've made an important step toward recovery by reaching out. If you are unable to register or have any questions, please contact the staff or view our home page.
a poem published in Frigg Magazine by me
DADDY'S GAME
I imagine you must've shut
yourself off somehow--the way
you'd eventually teach me to do--
before you entered my room
like a king's shadow
I hear the scrape of your jeans
your hands hot and big like swings;
I'm young so I love you. I do as you say.
You blow smoke in my face.
Now, here, I slip
because you taught me how to shut off--
how to die inside,
and I have only memories
of my body:
fear, arousal, panic and pain,
death around every corner
shh girl shh
I hid so well I lost me
in this confusion of a woman
trying to bud from
what's already been picked.
DADDY'S GAME
I imagine you must've shut
yourself off somehow--the way
you'd eventually teach me to do--
before you entered my room
like a king's shadow
I hear the scrape of your jeans
your hands hot and big like swings;
I'm young so I love you. I do as you say.
You blow smoke in my face.
Now, here, I slip
because you taught me how to shut off--
how to die inside,
and I have only memories
of my body:
fear, arousal, panic and pain,
death around every corner
shh girl shh
I hid so well I lost me
in this confusion of a woman
trying to bud from
what's already been picked.
Tags: ptsd, complex ptsd, incest, poetry, creative writing, sexual abuse
Share This Entry:
amyjo77 likes this
1 Comments On This Entry
aww amyjo I'm so sorry you were hurt by one of the people that are supposed to be protecting you. I hope you're taking gentle care of yourself.
blondie2002,
13 February 2013 - 11:48 PM
Page 1 of 1
