In a few days I turn 50.
Three weeks ago I started having horrible night terrors/night mares. I knew my whole life that when I was five years old I was sexually abused. But I didn't know who, just remembering bits and pieces. Now it is all very vivid....except I still don't know who. And I don't care to know. I don't want to deal with this. The horrible part is I remember telling my mom and she slapped me and called me a liar.
I've had a stressed relationship my whole life with my parents.
I have moments where I just can't stop crying, usually during the day. I'm afraid to sleep. And I'm mad! I'm embarrassed and I don't know what to do with all of this.....