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I'm finally at a point in my life where I have so many people that I could turn to if I needed help or support but I always find it difficult to really trust them enough to not look down on me for something. Even posting here, I always feel like people are just going to respond negatively to whatever I have to say or just ignore it. I'm not used to having people around who will actually be there for me in a supportive way and it's a little...confusing.
Instead of being thankful that I have a place to go (here) where people will understand and accept me, I just expect everyone to still think of me as a freak. And instead of asking for help when I need it from people who care about me (my husband, his family, teachers at school, friends), I expect them to think I'm just overreacting and being a loser.
Why can't I just accept that maybe there are people out there who legitimately think I don't suck? :unsure:/>
Instead of being thankful that I have a place to go (here) where people will understand and accept me, I just expect everyone to still think of me as a freak. And instead of asking for help when I need it from people who care about me (my husband, his family, teachers at school, friends), I expect them to think I'm just overreacting and being a loser.
Why can't I just accept that maybe there are people out there who legitimately think I don't suck? :unsure:/>
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You've made me want to call and email everyone who cares about me today and tell them thanks for accepting me no matter how difficult I am. I may not be able to lean on them completely yet but I can tell them how much I appreciate the fact that they're there.
Thank you for this insight. I cannot answer the question as to why it's so difficult to accept the fact that people may just like you and me but I can tell them I appreciate it.
You've helped me!!!