TRIGGER SU Attempt
My son and I had some things to do today and he was going to pick up the girls for a few hours. I told my ex and me and our son was through we would come by and pick up the girls.
My ex gave me some big story about his mother and that she did not want me around because I had attempted suicide. I have not been to her house but maybe three times in the three year since her baby boy left me and his four children.
Our middle daughter did not believe her Dad she said that her grandmother was really nice about the whole thing and that her Dad was the one being a idiot about that whole thing.
I told him that I knew what he said to our son that I had attempted suicide because my son's scooter broke down. I was upset that it was having mechanical issues but, it is stupid to think I attempted suicide over a scooter that I bought used for 500.00. He apparently told my son that I did not know how to handle stress.
Stress, that is a joke, that man does not know what stress is. He lives with his mother and does not work. Our son has to work to pay the bills because I have bone cancer. I have four teenagers to raise basically on my own since he signed over his custody of his own children when he left three years ago. He comes and gets his children when it is convient for him and not when it is needed. If it is his own time then it is okay if it is an emergency then it makes him mad.
Well I am mad. I am mad at life that I gave this idiot 20 years of my life and he just walks out the door like a jerk. I am mad at myself because I stayed in a physically abusive relationship for so many years to have his just walk away and blame me for everything. I am angry because I have cancer and when I am gone my son will have to raise his sisters because his father is a jerk. Yes, I am stressed.
However, I also live with DID and Bi-Polar Disorder and that happen to be the reason that I attempted suicide not because of stress of a scooter breaking down.