Just a cry for help.
I took my meds today. I spilled them while he was yelling at me. Oh, I took plenty.
I'm trying to slowly take the rest of the broprupion that I had decided not to take before. I'm slowly adding liquor, trying to make a good cocktail in my gut.
OD's never seem to work. That's why I'm trying to build it up throughout the day. Besides, it looks more accidental that way.
The truth is, I probably.will wake up in the morning. I probably won't end up in a hospital. It won't all just go awake.
So I hope I don't wake up, but I know I probably will. If I believed.in any god(s) I'd be praying right now