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Well today has been hell to say the least. Spent the intire day contemplating suicide. All I wanted was t speak to my therapist and she told me she was nt busy this week and that I could ring her and make an appointment, agh, or not...she wasnt there so I couldnt talk to her and then I cant even see her this week cause she is busy and I am at a major low point.
Even at the supermarket today the randm check out ladie asked if I was ok...is it that obvious? I am normally so good at hiding my upsetness.
So what could I do...had no one to talk to..my friend is working 24 7 ... so I was going to ring a hotline...yeah no..I hate talking on phone..even thoe I still was contemplating doing it until I found one that I could text..sO I text them and they say that because I have just harmed myself its against their policy to continue to talk to me and that I needed to go to a hospital. So um yeah thanks i just continued to hurt myself cause I finally get enug courage to get support and pretty much get shut down.
So what now...well Still SI...still suicidal...still having flashbacks...living on no sleep and no food...I am actually going crazy!
Even at the supermarket today the randm check out ladie asked if I was ok...is it that obvious? I am normally so good at hiding my upsetness.
So what could I do...had no one to talk to..my friend is working 24 7 ... so I was going to ring a hotline...yeah no..I hate talking on phone..even thoe I still was contemplating doing it until I found one that I could text..sO I text them and they say that because I have just harmed myself its against their policy to continue to talk to me and that I needed to go to a hospital. So um yeah thanks i just continued to hurt myself cause I finally get enug courage to get support and pretty much get shut down.
So what now...well Still SI...still suicidal...still having flashbacks...living on no sleep and no food...I am actually going crazy!
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you need to keep asking for help until you get it. the ER is the best place to go if you're suicidal and don't think you can stay safe. i hate talking on the phone too, but i've called several hotlines lately. they provide a safe person to talk to - i really recommend it.
ps. i can relate. i've been suicidal many times in my life. the last time wasn't too long ago. please do whatever you need to do to stay safe.