Day 92: A Letter to My Pandy's Community
A conversation today gave me the idea for this entry - - - what it means to be intrepid.
Beautifulblogger provided the idea for this topic. Thank you!!
There is a second Pandy's friend who helped inspire this posting: someone else whose permission I need before revealing them. This person made a statement I found inspiring, comforting, and encouraging. More than anything it gives me hope:
"Maybe we face terrible truths by finding the people out in the world, one by one, who can face them with us." - a fellow intrepid traveler
This statement was so powerful to me I adopted it as a tag line for all of my forum posts. I refer to the author of the quote as a "fellow intrepid traveler" because of the nature of this person's postings and the fact that I aspire to be like them.
I believe there are many intrepid travelers here.
The healing process is experienced by many survivors as a journey. I certainly experience it this way. When I was considering the idea of joining Pandy's I thought a long time about a handle that would describe my purpose. I realized that purpose was not simply about the fact that I am on a journey, but it was about the quality of the journey. I spent a few days on the public site as I was pondering and trying to imagine myself in this world. I had a number of preconceived, irrational (and unfair) notions about having online "friends." I couldn't imagine people being real, being genuine, being whole through this medium. I was concerned the communications would have a flavor of helplessness. I couldn't envision how such an environment could be healing. However, after twenty years of not experiencing much healing . . . just getting along a little less successfully every day . . . I realized I had no idea what a healing space might look like. I was rejecting people before I even met them! (Please forgive me for that.)
As I read the public blogs and postings I came to form an image of a community similar to communities in which I have participated, such as a class of students going through an outdoor adventure program together, a team of health professionals running a mobile medical clinic in a remote area of the world, or a group of friends on a hiking trip. What I saw was a community of fellow explorers, seeking the path to becoming (whatever "becoming" means to each individual). The members of the group walk along side one another. They encourage each other to carry on when they can, to rest when they need, to laugh and to cry, to write and create, to sift and sort until truth is all that remains. I saw a community to which I pined to belong, and I didn't even know it. I found my people.
When I realized I wanted to become part of this community, to earn my place in it, I also began to understand the healing journeys undertaken here have a number of qualities that drew me. The people here were:
To undertake this healing journey is to be intrepid. Thus, I adopted the handle IntrepidShe to encompass my hopes and to set a guide post toward the one I wish to become.
To my wonderful friends here at Pandy's, thank you for walking with me, for sitting with me, for hearing me, for sharing your hearts and your stories. I will find that IntrepidShe because I have you along side me.
Always, my friends, please, take gentle care.