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Learning from the Prickers...part 2

Posted by Charleigh , 15 October 2013 · 83 views

What a great band with great lyrics that really have been making me think.

"I know I know that good friends come and go..." -The Prickers, I Know I Know

Oh do I ever know how good friends come and go. It's sad to think that very few friendships last a lifetime. I'm currently struggling with the possibility of letting someone go for it seems they have crossed a major line by saying some hurtful things to me. What he said hurts but the thought of letting him go, losing him, is even more painful. I feel like I have somehow failed as a person in a way that I can't seem to keep friends. I want to turn to my usual way of coping and find a way to make what he said my fault so that I can continue to think of him as a good person and not as someone who can hurt me, who has hurt me. But I know I can't do that, that I shouldn't do that, because that is the "old way" and I have to do things differently now. As much as I hate it, as hard as it is to have to face the pain and acknowledge that he isn't the safest person in my life anymore, I still can't go back to that way. It scares me though. I don't know how to cope with these feelings. I know it's something I am going to be learning in therapy but we aren't even close to that right now. So here I am stuck with all these feelings without knowing how to cope. It's frustrating and hard and scarey. I don't want to do it. I feel stuck



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