Does It Ever End?

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Does It Ever End?

18 September 2012

Posted by artemis618

8 years. I've been a victim since I was 13 years old. And it hasn't stopped. Different guys, different situations, different ways to cope or not cope. It's getting to a point where I want to leave my boyfriend because he knows what's happened to me. I want to be with someone who doesn't see my hurt. Doesn't see my darkness because I feel like that's all he sees. If I look sad, he just tells me not to think about what happened or just smile because at least my PTSD is only apparent in the fall.

I just want to be someone else.

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My dietician once said something that struck me both as brilliant and incredibly depressing: you can't be anyone else, so you'll just have to learn to like yourself. Your boyfriend may not be kind or gentle about your sadness, but you certainly can be your own friend and tell yourself it's okay to feel that way because of what happened, but that you also will not drown in your sadness. You'll get through this with hard work, persistence and determination.

Give yourself the same chance you would give to a friend if s/he was going through the same thing.

stealing_wonderland, 18 September 2012 - 09:16 PM