I don't know what to do...
Right now, I'm fighting so hard the urges to SI. I guess maybe I should have called Dr K? I don't know.
I just want to give in, get it over with. It would help at least for a little bit.
And it isn't helping that everything from the last time I SI'ed is fading. I find it a bit like losing the comfort I felt at those visible signs of my SI.
I don't know if that makes sense, but it might to some.
Not much, if anything, is holding me back right now.