My Story - in my own words
I experienced trauma as a child and it has tainted many areas of my adult life.
I was sexually abused.
I was sexually abused by four perpetrators:
My older brother, two male cousins, and a female family friend.
The abuse began when I was 2, almost 3 years old.
10 years I endured, and then it ended in a violent rape.
I was raped when I was 12.
I thought I was pregnant.
I didn't know how to tell, I was just a child.
I hoped I was so that the "secret" could be revealed.
And I hoped that I wasn't.
9 months passed.
I was without child.
The "secret" continued.
At age 12, I thought, "I will have to live with this for the rest of my life".
I became very suicidal and those suicidal tendencies continue today.
When I was 13, I mustered up the courage to inform my dad about the abuse.
When I came to it, I told him very little.
When I was 18, I had a "trigger reaction" with my boyfriend at the time and came to tell my dad.
Once again, I disclosed very little information.
When I was 24, my virginity was a conversational piece over a meal amongst family friends.
I voiced my anger to my dad once again.
At the age of 26, I underwent a traumatic experience and attended counseling.
I determined enough was enough, and chose to "face my giants", "knock em dead"
Drug desires, and
Thoughts of experimenting with casual sex and same-sex relations,
I decided to live life and try to be functional in it.
I'm doing my best to do just that.