Updated 12/19 - I believe it was my fault...and YES I deserved everything I got.
Updated around Thanksgiving So It's been almost 2 months since I wrote this entry... I'm no better. I still believe it. I should've told someone. I should have not gone back. I should have fought to the death.
Still......I believe it was my fault...and YES I deserved everything I got....
Original Post: I kept going back. I knew he was going to hurt me in some way or another and I continuously kept going back. WHY? I was so stupid. What did I think was going to happen? Of Course he was calling me to come over to hurt me. and I WENT! I went, knowing what was going to happen to me. I went knowing it was going to hurt. I went, knowing I was going to be humiliated in some degrading way. I still went.
So yes, in response to my T's question...." Do you feel it was your fault?"
ABSOLUTELY! FOOL ME ONCE SHAME ON YOU. FOOL ME TWICE, SHAME ON ME. I DESERVED IT, IT WAS MY FAULT AND NOTHING WILL EVER CHANGE THAT.