I feel like I'm going under
But here on this blog, I can be honest about my feelings. I feel lonely, afraid, frustrated and extremely sad. I'm carrying the weight of the world on my shoulders and I don't know when I'll ever be allowed to put it down. The only thing that is making me even try to carry on is because I have to be there for my daughter. If I didn't have her, I'd just give up. So for her I wake up in the morning and do the things that I must, but my soul is weary.
I'm tired of fantasizing of having just a single day of peace and joy. Maybe I'm not meant to feel those things... :'(