Yesterday while waiting to see my psychiatrist some guy walked up to me and grabbed my chest. AND I FROZE
When my psychiatrist came out to get me I couldn't speak. All the way back to her office I was just not there. When I sat down and she asked me how things were going, I don't know what snapped in me but I just blurted it out. Really cannot even tell you what happened from there I disassociated and while I wasn't completely gone I wasn't really there either. i do know at some point she sedated me. I was more clear headed by the time I got to the nurses office and she had me again repeat it. That I remember and I remember them asking me multiple times if I wanted the police called. I told them no over and over. They had me describe the guy in hopes they could track him down by who was there for appointments around my time.
My issue.........why does this have me so Effed up? I thought the constant flashbacks I was already having were bad enough. So bad that is why I was at the psychiatrist in the first place. In the grand scheme of my life, what happened yesterday was nothing. Yet OMG it feels so HUGE. Every negative thing inside of me is soooooooooo amped up. Everything I felt like I was barely holding onto is slipping through my fingers.